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just filling in some time learning fast to do keyboard skills learn somepin and also...  oh dear

well here we is bottlin the bottlin to go to a prayer meeting las t night i was sayin to GOD i don't want to go... but seems i is....  ah the worries... hey that meoosic is compelling...

been explorin the theme of worries and GOD today... you see GOD don' worry about no'thing...  and GOD spends a lot of time in the Bible tryin to get folks not to worry... cos whjen  we worry we go about it by goin down the same ol track and getting a bit mad see....  so you need to shout a bit louder GOD SAYS YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY... the scariest thing about no worries is that you might take your eye off of the ball and then what.... like is no-one worried abut all those folks on anti-depressant medication... i mean does that sort out theri finances? or if they stop gettin hysterical do they go on shoppin spree trips cos suddenly everything is better? look i do not know and don't pretend to....   the mental state of worryin itself does that change circumstances?... why is it when we cry n someone's shoulder we suddenly feel a lot better?  does it help does it change circumstances....   ok what changes actual circumstances...  cos if the circumstances themselves have not changed then what is there not to be worried about...

a changed perspective   that feels different where worries are removed... or the removal of worries takes on a different flow of perspective....   but the circumstances...

i lay on my bed earlier and thought ....  well this could all be simplified.. there was something about this solution that filled me with .... what well something filled me with something... and so there i lay and thought well if then... and then i did the calculated reality.... now that was scarey!!!   actually my simple solution was that crazy solution to wholy trust in GOD to actually place myself in those BIG HANDS OF GOD's  and the weird thing was i was a bit overcome with the oddness of a peace... and then i thought .... how i would detest to have the folks i know yes there is one in particular who seems pretty keen to have no cares about what GOD wants so long as things is neat and tidy and they don't want to look afteranything ... what they gonna do about everyone in reality affected in the scope of their mindset sprinkle a little incense over their head once a lifetime and that suffice... as if they would!!!!!!!!!!!!!   what is it about and yes hands up i plead guilty we is too keen to have stuff so that a whole pile of folks looks sick as a parrot and is thoroughly mis and poorly AND GOD knows what else....   just so we can says 'i told you so!'.....  now what christian .. i see you run i see you hurry off ... the trouble with running is someday one of those bespoke persons is gonna runs after you and then what you may escape but is there not some kindov due there a payment of compensation...  you see i cannot get this stuff to shift off'v my chest... how much i dislike the hubris of the mindsets of them christian folks....  my brothers and sisters them kinsfolks that can scheme and plot everyone's downfall that is not them tjhat is and then run away and blame everyone for the state they gets in... i quite like the model that some seems to feel they has of Judgement Day....   they will get their comeuppance some day... those folks thinks... and i quite like the idea of folks actually finding that Judgement day passage of rite... i was having a reverie on such a scenario about a week ago .... someone a church leader with one such thing for everyone else to look forward you know everyone's going to hell or else theology/theocracy...had just completely pissed me off and not for the first time..  i mean .... like if you only knew if i could only tell you... so i quite liked i had a place to go within the visages of their own mindfolk's scenario... i quite liked that there the court room ... now have you anything further to add to that point... oh now we call the witnesses (compulsory attendance) and me would come in with files that deep files that fat.. they would look across ... with surprise perhaps....  i so prefer the Heaven on earth scenario.... it had better be as good as it feels it shoudl be otherwise me i goes to hell... the more i think about the agendas and stuff of real life christians the less i feels i want to be considered a part of this....  me an GOD well what do You expect that You do such a crap job with the other christians...... so off i march doin my best to avoid all church folks and well livin well livin somehow.....  the alternatives just me'n'GOD  now that feels a thoroughly unlikely scenario reclusive though i likes to be....   

the thing is followin GOD as i found out last year means you gives up your opinion your personal views of everything.....  includin what you think about annoyin christians but you give up your personal views about what GOD wants you to do - Job Filler

earlier today i was slightly bemused about what GOD was up to surely i had some chores i was on my way surely?... GOD had me in a cafe having a slightly subdued coffee with only rags of newspaper to stare at... there was on- like -the last page i get to.... and believe you me when i saw the title of the series i was underamused about to discard it impatiently ...but GOD had me open the pages and found my fascination drawn to an article....  it was about big business and a particular company fairly new and built to bust out in the market... when the recession hit and it found itself swamped with competitors it hired the services of a company to work out how to cut costs.....  the company hired was on a payment structure allied to the amount it was able to save and was forced to work cooperatively with a young i can motivated company.... as i was reading this.... i had an image of a garden well a plant the image of pruning to as they were encourage fresh roots growth....  well that was it... cool huh... reminds me of mog's garden image...  something about that reading and the experience therein did something i tell you!

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GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,