here aree some efforts i did earlier  to try and keep up when the they are not dated but hey... it's all relative?

ok now here we is today.... have just beein to my regular church... it was kinda like i could be here all the time... right up to the pastor and guest leave?... i am reminded of the plutocracy that resides endemically the endemic power structures that do not behave like an image of GOD .... it's like they have not been paying attention to the guest speaker actually they were not there for those particular words... the word gossip... all the little secret conversations that go on punctuated by sideways glances to the person concerned or even the person who ... notices.......   which is like what is going on now.... but GOD is showing me ... how GOD sees me how they squint their view of  the world completely are completely  different places ... i pick up some unholy stuff with them too still they belong to the plutocracy and me well... the tying up and stringing up with their spirit ... others don't see but far from a laid back sense of security and peace.... one is on guard (not everyone) but who are my friends here? who are GOD's friends.... i know why i can't feel safe here why others don't get ... it's become a church for friends of friends and one wonders why they seem to have so few friends though occasional relatives...
 
 Good news though they the church have found a new slave that does the things what the one who died does... similarly somebody who has had a rough sleeping background... as they brush past me ... me i am thinking of the Acts passage about Stephen.... being moved from one role to another and being prayed for the annointing for an administrative role ie human organisational one ....GOD's promise of providence on human rules time.... i love this they pray for annointing and GOD gives gifts a wide ruled perspective... signs and wonders wisdom.. a treasure to be around.... one does however wonder what happened at the church once GOD had switvched roles for Stephen once again... remember he was a deacon but that teaching prostheletising whatever you would have it calledis pretty powerful ... before he goes on to the end for which he is most importantly remembered... the origin of all that teaching material courtesy of a few letters written over all that time?.... my reverie kindof looks at what it would be like if the setting up people the sounddesk people etc did all that... i have become distracted actually what is bugging me is our guest speaker....   
 
i have heard them take this line before ... i didn't believe them then and somehow i don't believe them now either... they are reading Jesus throuhgh Paul's eyes... Jesus never said every action is started by a thought... does that sound more like nouvelle cuisine of the all important pop psychology maybe even drawn from cogito ergo sum? it kindov does to me....   the point being is if we hold our thoughts captive (Paul) so our actions conform to those of ... the mind of Christ ...then we will be ok... to me this is a convoluting way of coming back to the same thing.... ie why don't we search out GOD's HEart for us in the first place ... that WHOLE GOODNESS of GOD thing why do we not search to have the relationship that Jesus has which is direct relationship with GOD that all makes sense to me... i don't get the speaker's take and i am disappointed in them... it is that thing about the expertise of Paul... the speaker even changes what Jesus actually does say that actions come out of our heart... heart goes to mind and then action? no Jesus is saying that our actions come out of our heart's position and that may indeed byp0ass our minds... now that makes sense to me and i lose confidence or interest in the speaker... now why wouyld a bible scholar do that? i wonder why they distort Jesus to make Paul's case... thge spirit of the bible the spirit of the speaker imposed the spirit imposed on the speaker perhaps....( i am reminded of a youtube comment made by someone about Bethel they were complaining about the spirit of Bill Johnson (figurehead leader) and when i read it i felt that they had a point....) why am i here.... i explained to someone that last time they came i could not remember what they had said but i did remember the presence of the Holy Spirit that happened once they had in fact stopped talking and asking for the Holy Spirit.... that was something else!!! ... something they did say though that spoke to me was that thing about how we view others in the church.... in secret... does this count this clatter of keyboard? of course it does! and that is why i am saying help to GOD on all this... what is going on that i am being affected by?... GOD what is your purpose with this? bring your revelation.... please Lord Your Peace Your Victory! Your Outpouring... something else the speaker managed to say was: to talk about thieves homosexuals pphiles and murderers.... all in one breath... was i impressed with that?... a thought that we were all murderers kindof cheered me up... but i was glad for as i always am the outward expression of theology by the people who write books and shape the
thinking... who take thoughts captive ... the speaker had already said something about the listener not intellectualising what they were saying... and actually by the time the Holy Spirit time came they had lost me completely ... i said to GOD can we do this at home .... GOD said yes
 
where are the poor here... well the poor are busy happy to have something to do ... and the poor have otherwise to fall into line with the power brokers who to be fair sometimes receive GOD's revelation.... on my way i stopped for a beggar and ivited them to come to church for tea and coffee and refreshments if not for church.... they explained that they were not comfortable with church... even though they did through their circumstances receive what churches had to offer.... they had a very clear position one of discomfort... and they had a church based background that started all this.... they were afraid and somehow somewhere in theri spirit on the run.... i prayed for them openly ... and now i am thinking hey you know what what about Jesus direct in all this....
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struggles to make space and docking denied...
 
so here we are afterall.....
 
loads ofthings crammed in before managing to get from a to b... just one step forward for every ....
 
cos i coiiuldnt get in start browsing... news stories of poverty rain down one way or another.....   the change in law concerning squatter's rights gives all power back to the landowners.... it is an interesting aspect of law i feel that actually gave squatters some rights in the first place....  a benevolence? a freedom from abuse of those who had nowhere else to go?   an opportunist's acquisitive ? squatting rights ... i have known various folks over the years that have made albeit temporary home in empty propertys usually with others i have known folks who lived in buildings with permission from the owners.... rough and ready to a desire to create a place like home .... i have also met folks who squat and are less than polite drug addicts alcohol dependents and their friends and their exploiters....
 
is it the rawness of need or the boundaries... i would never do that therefore i shall do this instead that offends... the housing need can only push up prices can only help the housing market but what about folks who can't afford or can't manage... or don't want to play ball.... as increasingly individuals are taking to cars if they have them... folks being worn out... earlier a squatter spoke eloquently about the options facing them.... not squatting... they were a student previously living as au pair but the family unable to manage any more financially .... they felt they had options cos of their social circle of friends had sofas for surfin.... i liked that they were acutely aware that others in their group were not so fortunate....    home is about resources and it is also about social community... the commodification of domestic arrangements has caused breakdown of neighbourhood communities fragmentation of the political meanings of what the role of government should be.... or what community should mean.... the all in this together means what for people who are not housetrained socially trained to be anything but stress to sit next to ....
 
 
 
i had a conversation recently with someone from a different country i'd heard them speaking on this before... they are working in a factory here in the uk listening to them you'd think they have nothing good to say about the english work colleagues... but i have heard this before a building site worker who cannot believe how many teabreaks english workers take.... the work environment is the populated by the semiskilled.... what of the standards of application? my companion is clearly shocked.... this wouldn't happeon the continent!   nowhere in europe!....  so no pride either? no management or supervision?  the unsatisfied working the soulless earning a living... money at the end of the day soul destroyed... i remember the chinese factory worker suicides when one is on this assembly line one is somehow in a vortex of no other place to go.....  this is a far cry from like working for a living... where is the life...


GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,