yeah! able to get in .... not for the first time this week delayed!

who are the poor of spirit? earlier i was part of that interesting conversation... about pr christians and theri collective reputations.... how do you know how the world views christians? well why don't you ask them.... one church owner? did, and surveyed the staff of a cafe nearby where 'their' congregants congregated after church.... they then reported the findings to  the congregants....it was a shock to them.. is this a surprise ? .... surely the best view of christians is of those who are captive audiences to theri behaviour....   they;'re mean they don;t tip they make ridiculous demands and have unfair expectations on ... their captive servants..... add in thre story about a christian conference venue where a nearby hotel refused to take delegates because of their mean spirited demanding behaviour leaving the staff more upset than blessed.... the storytller concludes ... it's because they believe they are kings /// that's how they are taught methinks..... has something got lost in translation? leaving a boorish aftertaste//// this the Gospel? can anyone join? are the poor just those that don't kinda want to ?

the Gospel is not phjilosophy it is a process and transformation and who is there to see it? why the whole world of course.....

 recently we were treated to the preview return of one of our fold.... when i sees them walking along me i make a mad dash for it .... i later hear they have declared themselves a 'new person' me i am thinking i don;t care.... me i;ll glacly settle for not being in even the same town as them..... seems though that a significant part of what hasn't changed is theri insistence on telling you how special they are with lasshings of a  complete disregard for the hard labours of people around them.... being told that they have time for you ... is kindov true in a way that you'd rather not have it is true... sometimes we has to swallow what GOD gives or does....  so who is the poor of spirit here?
i should be pleased surely to be closeted with company that i can only be in a hurry not to be around... that feels invasive is controling is juvenile a slob  takes everything for granted and leaves an imprint of something unmistakeably not GOD is ...  i am asked if i am pleased to see their return.... i can only feel ... a great sense of grief that the period of their absence has been a wonderful breath of fresh air and is it about to ....?

 is it true that some christians are far more important than others and the rest of us are roundly conned?....  well the world certainly does a lot of things that way.... like in orwells animal farm? (which i haven't read but feels a convenient parallele)  that this is the way to be....well the expliction of the church according to Paul would suggest by common consent that that is the case.... 
.             well there is that thing about serving others ....  how annoying is that though... who do we serve... what actually does service mean? who does GOD love? well clearly there is evidence of GOD loving the lovable oh and the statused but what about those who are in suffering or embarrassing or unpleasant to be around i mean GOD!!!??? where is the evidence? that they are loved by GOD?....   those totally ignored by those that are clearly loved by GOD because of the evidence of their blessing should surely be ignored too surely? is it that difficult to work out?

but the poor of spirit... are we the put upon? are we the gladly surrendering to thge domestic service of the grand duke/duchess should we refuse to be served or to serve? but who is the poor in spirit then? those blessed by GOD or those in need of Blessing?

earlier this week i had an interesting experinece... i had a meeting with someone i thought to share reading of  scripture... they had been pretty firm about what they wanted me to read.. i had a suggestion of my own... for some reason i was totally underwhelmed more exciting was the scripture that they said they were reading with someone else... already the format they suggested of reading verses here and there was not quite doing it for me... anyway i was protesting and wasn't quite sure why i was protesting... so when i turned up ... i felt like well a sense of blank what did GOD say to you ....  i had failed to read the text....i explained:... well to be honest i had attempted to read and completely failed to recall anything except that i had tried to find out on the internet a bit about context and failed and ... i found myself in a situation of compromise .. i was being told off about not having read scripture... what!!!??? i had turned up for the meeting...  in fact i get asked a direct question... do i believe that the bible is the word of GOD... i have to reply and answer that in terms of the actual as asked question the answer has to be no... i am disappointed to be talking to someone who proffesses a desire to learn ... apparently that is why we are seated there... but is completely off on one regarding just about everything.... there is much i find not very GOD about this whole engagement.... they seem to be determined that i read the scripture for next week... it is true that i had not asked GOD about whether to read or not read ... and i say i will do that much but i emphasise that they should not presume to know what GOD has to say on the matter... i am sensing something very ungodly going on here  something very hidden and quite is well what would the right word be ... oppressive it feels is just a part of something more going on....  we part ... i am both furious and flustered... me i want to stay put and finish my drink... i read bible .. it does not quite take off... i go outside for a fag... GOD is all for Blessing me though... someone offers a kind word... i am in the cold but oddly i do not feel at all cold... a nearby church organ starts playing ... there is something heavenly in the moment... someone comes along a complete stranger and i chat with them.... i have a curious conversation with them where they seem to be eulogising on Henry 8th as a saint.... for burning down the wealthy monastries.... they have already had a go at the pope now passed for their part in the holocaust.... well i am talking to someone who is from the sectarian west  and the conversation ends with a me feeling a huge desire to pray Blessing for them.... the person welcomes the idea hopes for that Blessing.... they go off........ and i see them shortly later alone looking rather sad..... i have cheered up and am now feeling Blessed can i though feel more Blessed? what about them as i avert gaze and leave?....

how we view eachother .... ourselves... GOD

GOD HELP US ALL!

oh this was rather intriguing:  http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-21630874

GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,