haha GOD is so cool... here i am in my seclusion and yet.... GOD brings in church vip and family to do church informally with me.... now they have gone i sit with a relic of the welsh revival ... a postcard that somebody sent from the great happening i have been left staring at it a photo of evan roberts and some other folks it's weird i feel the heat from it the photo has a caption that is discoloured but the photo itself is like white i tell you i feel the heat from it.. it was only yesterday i was moaning about fascinations with events of far off places and far off times... the photo falls as i move to pick it up something else falls off and i look to see the word 'hello' hello of today of now..

what would revival be like i am sure we all have our own ideas and while i complain about the expectations in our own social context i am glad that i am looking at myself ... a few days ago revival ... i am aware of that there are many christians with implants on their hearts that are praying in this locality... oh why so downcast oh my soul!... do i fear their revival? i guess i feel that every revival or move of GOD has it's own features it's own colour if you like and that no two revivals are the same? or am i missing something.... i recently heard about some happenings in a church not too far away.... they were so overwhelmed by the drama of the happenings that they were calling on an american big gun 'to manage it' .... much like the orkney revival called in the big gun of the time who appeared for every revival.... is that what time waits for? a big gun to birth? to supervise?... i tell you GOD i feel let down by that notion... help from elsewhere and they call a friend... rather than ask the audience or ask GOD the author... but i say this ... and i say this.... is not revival about all of us being out of our depth isn't that the point ? a move of GOD a move of something bigger than ourselves...  i confess i have yet to attend one prayer group dedicated... is revival stunned cos i hesitate cos i am not trusting that GOD will do GOD's revival is it me that wants to control GOD?.... cos i don't want to do GOD's Revival?  if revivals have different colours then what does that mean?... a recent reading of the bible came up with .... psalm 82

i groaned when i started to read what GOD had given me...

Psalm 82
A Psalm of Asaph.
1 God stands in the assembly [of the representatives] of God; in the midst of the magistrates or judges He gives judgment [as] among the gods.

2 How long will you [magistrates or judges] judge unjustly and show partiality to the wicked? Selah [pause, and calmly think of that]!

3 Do justice to the weak (poor) and fatherless; maintain the rights of the afflicted and needy.

4 Deliver the poor and needy; rescue them out of the hand of the wicked.

5 [The magistrates and judges] know not, neither will they understand; they walk on in the darkness [of complacent satisfaction]; all the foundations of the earth [the fundamental principles upon which rests the administration of justice] are shaking.

6 I said, You are gods [since you judge on My behalf, as My representatives]; indeed, all of you are children of the Most High.
7 But you shall die as men and fall as one of the princes.

8 Arise, O God, judge the earth! For to You belong all the nations.

but was grinning by the end of it.... oh would that we all could take that on board... our opinions do not matter.... 

John 12 49 This is because I have never spoken on My own authority or of My own accord or as self-appointed, but the Father Who sent Me has Himself given Me orders [concerning] what to say and what to tell.

i tell you it feeels different when we just suspend the importance of our opinion for a moment and let GOD BE GOD!...  with so many opinions and traditions and deferences it is no surprise that we end up in brawls the moment we stop being sons of Our Father and remember who we are.... who we are meant to be.... Jesus never stops remembering Who He is....  and gives us a glimpse... what it takes.... role models? it is hard to tell what growing up exposures of personhood the boy to man Jesus would have gone through or is that it ? Jesus doesn't appear to be saying you are what you eat ... Jesus reflects you are what you give out .... do you have a choice in that? who you are in the outside world.... i believe that Jesus is saying that you do not always have a choice or an apparent choice.. but 'I can take away'  the effects of and the influences that have turned things the way they have gone'...

but i have attended another more informal one and i enjoyed that one and felt GOD for sure... in that one there are no 'cjhurch leaders'... just worship a presence of a few folks ..wanting waiting for... a move of GOD in this place turning everything upside down... bringing GOD's speech into being.. was i just out of practice....  i, what?... listening ... responding? wanting?

'what more do you want me to tell you?' is it that we need to tell be assured by eachother our own status our own persons are we that distrustful of eachother we have to engage with one another talk to eachother but not to ask to wait for an answer to GOD? i can't help wondering if we are stuckj with lovelessness of a blindness to eachother to such an extent that all you gonna get is revival on another planet! just imagine.. a parallel universe with revival fires all over the place .. while we sit numb with the state of unloved except notionally and unloving crying out for some hidden event to happen out there that can then touch us and save us... hold on are we not already saved i mean in reality not notionally not religiously... i hope we didn't forget .. did we want to ? or what or where are we with the what next i do mean deep down in our hearts our souls

GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,