2012 lent blog

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s there any end to finishing off?

what sort of day is yesterday? wjhat sort of day is today?

well today is a choice of 3 rs 3 rites... i have slept most of the day and been irritated by that nodding off inadvertantly when i was about to... avoiding the issue perhaps of the 3 rs?... over the weekend the theme emerged of the 3 rs when it appeared that we merge ourselves into conformity of the world one way and another be it church our outside of it and suffice to live our lives that way with the apolegetic council of .. well everyone does it that way don't they?... i hate it when that notion creeps into the aologetics of the church... like you ask for prayer for one thing and you get the apologetics of the world... in another... so this time i bunk off from asking for prayer the place i need council... i opt for that strategy of well ok let me live my life as i am finding appear in my prayers and so go that way with trepedation and seem to have a bright and amazing conversation with GOD that well gives me peace and exhiliration as well as a sense of panic as i wake the next day... now what!?...

...so earlier today i am having a fag pondering these very matters when out of nowhere a woman approaches the bench i am sitting on she is clearly determined to sit on my bench (other benches are available) and to sit where it means i have to budge up!... GOD APPOINTMENT!!! like now? yes now.... as she approaches she is struggling to walk and its not a case of old age .. we exchange words and i click what the probable cause of her discomfort is all about... and am at a loss... i ask GOD what to say to her but no sooner am i about to open my mouth when.... she is off... i could leap up ... but i don't.... but i do think hey this was very immediate! this happening and response....   this is too much for me and yes lying down and having a long nap probs is the best solution.... 

but it freaks me out ok this is the 3rs... statusquo... go with the world.... go with GOD ... none of the above.... this is the great excitemtent about options there always is another one... ask an open question ask another.... it's not been as straight forward as all that...

in recent days anothier mystery option has been emerging.. i say mystery cos well how do we go from here begin pass go and all that.. is it actually even on the list ? but it has been preoccupying me .. i gave a word to that effect well sort of to someone else but it was in feeling spoken to myself when the word emerged... and now? i was excited by whatever it was and if i am honest the theme has been bugging and resurfacing and i am not gonna discuss it with anyone not even you! for it to emerge at this time so tangibly and teasingly is well a bit much really!  what i did with my dileema was to ask GOD to give confirmation and oddly enough or not it was  well it sort of happened unexpectedly but in a chuirch environmnet not where i would have expected? deliberately so!  i don't know what to do with all that i know what i think i need and a whole lot of stuff is well thoroughly seemingly so incompatible?  what now what next?

ok this is probs the starting point of the next phase..... but back to yesterday and the joys of spring!... church went well a whole lot of stuff... i spent more time out than in.... having to retrieve something that should have been there ... and wasn't how did that come about ? well someone was helping that situation smug happy self satisfied fat buddha.... had managed to interfere sufficiently deflty to make this inevitable....  then playing silly buggers that predatory stalking behaviour crowding out my space even though i have made a path to deliberately avoid them... i told them to feck off!.... right there in the church... they didn't take too kindly to that stuff and a bit later on tried to play thunder brothers...  i gave it to GOD .. then something else was amiss requiring a quick errand... errand eventually successful boy was i glad of the respite... church was a little short of sermon talks thankfully but the sound of the church fuhrer fuhrering and doing so without consultation it seems... well .... i do ask prayer from someone though... someone who like me seems to spend more time out of church than in it on a Sunday... and somehow has never quite got that religious bug... the silly buggers fat buddha person keeps appearing reappearing ... but keeps their distance me i might just have slugged them at that point if they had tried anything on!... how inappropriate are we talking here... well seems i bring out that secret side of that person... so i should be pleased... everyone else deals on a different level with them so the issue never seems to arise... there is a lot of secret stuff that goes on in churches unnoticed? and undealt with.. ... hey you know that you only have to look around you ...oh or in your own head heart perhaps?,,,  there is Gospel and there is the folks that feels smug about... and the two mix?  hey all i had to do was say to GOD you know what?... well actually i kindov had the night before...  was this the meaning this the time of.... a prophetic word somebody gave me about well as they told it growing too big for a place and having to move on.... pentecost sunday seems a good moment?,, so it was with some reluctance as well as not really a clear enough vision of alternatives i mean in terms of GOD saying  do this or that....  so i kindov trundled in... having to face the masculine protectionism of the unpc.. in other words... where is the Gospel for these folks? clearly not from eachother at least not without a court case... i raised that issue once recently that things go on in churches that would yield court cases in real life situations... you would think that an enlightened ipc might have thought that was a good point...

the previous day it turned up... oh!? a revisit.... to an old adventure it was very interesting!... we three were sitting there... me i was just joining someone and someone else and they were just talking about ...

the person who had invited me was inviting the other person... to that church event  and me i was asked.... they are not very pc hey you are not very pc ... hmm i looked at them ... and explained i had gone to one event there and conceded i had not really addressed GOD as to whether to go again... to be truthful i ... well i put it this way i said i had thought i would like it and that i had not liked and that there were a number of points that i had not liked it on... i was secretly wondering why they had just told me i was not pc... sure i have nothing good to say about lot of things but one thing i feel i understand about the issue of pc... not the politic that is or the anti politic that is similarly in the whims and fancies of the cultural inquistion of the moment... but there is a searchj of the                 heart of GOD

and this results in something that runs like this.... hey if you do that you hurt so and so so you do this and it removes that stain that indignity that well quite al lot of everything! hey you not getting the point in the first place well try this yo0u receive a sanciton for non compliance!... so beautifully constructed framework of legalisms  like in the bible!... so why is it that the biblebashers hate so mchu all that thing? but not for Gospelling reasons... there you have it! where is the Gospel when you need it? the Gospel is at the heart of the need for pc which is a result of the failure of the Gospel... so remove the pc and you get the gospel right..... people can be very creative these religious types full of fundaments of love enlightenment and love and humanity and love and GOD even and all that!

so am gonna take a break in a minute.....  to carry on with this... but first am gonna tell you about pentecost sunday!...

so church was hopefully great for everyone else but a little on the indistinct side for me well that s an exageration... so  a bunch of us join an ecumentical prayer picnic!... there are all of 4 of us and we are out oin the grass half shade half trees... and it is a gorgeous glorious day but the scene is a little curiously interrupted by wolf whistling... ok at first i ignore this but then i look up ... there is nobody there? what about adjoining buildings?...

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[ecuworrier]

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the previous day it turned up... oh!? a revisit.... to an old adventure it was very interesting!... we three were sitting there... me i was just joining someone and someone else and they were just talking about ...

the person who had invited me was inviting the other person... to that church event  and me i was asked.... they are not very pc hey you are not very pc ... hmm i looked at them ... and explained i had gone to one event there and conceded i had not really addressed GOD as to whether to go again... to be truthful i ... well i put it this way i said i had thought i would like it and that i had not liked and that there were a number of points that i had not liked it on... i was secretly wondering why they had just told me i was not pc... sure i have nothing good to say about lot of things but one thing i feel i understand about the issue of pc... not the politic that is or the anti politic that is similarly in the whims and fancies of the cultural inquistion of the moment... but there is a searchj of the                 heart of GOD

and this results in something that runs like this.... hey if you do that you hurt so and so so you do this and it removes that stain that indignity that well quite al lot of everything! hey you not getting the point in the first place well try this yo0u receive a sanciton for non compliance!... so beautifully constructed framework of legalisms  like in the bible!... so why is it that the biblebashers hate so mchu all that thing? but not for Gospelling reasons... there you have it! where is the Gospel when you need it? the Gospel is at the heart of the need for pc which is a result of the failure of the Gospel... so remove the pc and you get the gospel right..... people can be very creative these religious types full of fundaments of love enlightenment and love and humanity and love and GOD even and all that!

so am gonna take a break in a minute.....  to carry on with this... but first am gonna tell you about pentecost sunday!...

so church was hopefully great for everyone else but a little on the indistinct side for me well that s an exageration... so  a bunch of us join an ecumentical prayer picnic!... there are all of 4 of us and we are out oin the grass half shade half trees... and it is a gorgeous glorious day but the scene is a little curiously interrupted by wolf whistling... ok at first i ignore this but then i look up ... there is nobody there? what about adjoining buildings?...

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where was i ah yes the wolf whistling!... someone was being very sneaky... but there was something a little odd about it... eventually i ask if anyone knows of  ... no....   a bit later on i am completely in the zone of i have to find the source of that whistling... and set off... and find it!.... it is an exotic species of bird! we all come and have a look and gradually there is quite a crowd of folks.... now me i am quite certain that this bird is escaped form somebodies care and the longer we admire it the more information we get about its normal environment....  someone eventually tries to get some help and as usual all that happens is there is much discussion about the possibility of reward the potential value of our new friend and ... i point out that it was me that saw if first and that actually i am pretty excited about it's beauty and feel very priveleged about the whole thing ... and if there is any reward that person who did the honours of phoning is very welcome to it... i am trying to impress on them that the bird would need the right sort of care so it is not quite a case of catching which is not within anyone present's skill set as well as it being sensibly too far away to reach and stuff like that.... everyone leaves except us the picnic party kindof waiting we move our picnic to the tree and amuse ourselves by teaching the bird a few Gospel tennets which our bird actually iterates once for a couple of our lines!... and muse about the possibility of spreading the word by mimic bird in an area where Jesus remains a swear word we are gathered to pray and eventually we do so ... and quite suddenly amidst all our prayers there is a flutter of wings and the bird decamps.... i feel quite sad... but i am wondering about its escape in the first place... the rescue people who have not turned up and an owner apparently not far away who has lost a bird of similiar description and has not answered their messages.... but beautiful company we have been well priveleged to!.....  the rest of the day remains unchurched or so... i go to one church gig where i might have offered to help ... am too late to be remotely useful!... but i have prayed and talked some stuff with someone we have been sitting and talking about our own situations of poise and change.... Embrace the Light says the Lord! 

i messed up on some prayer opportunities.. oh and church indistinct? i got a word direct to me and it is one i got from GOD direct to me a couple of years ago now... round about this time no less! and me i am quite excited ...!!!..

time is running short again and i suspect it is me dragging my heals well my heels too... so back to that conversation with my well loved two colleagues...  the one who invited me to an event owie and one who was just being invited owjb..... it was on the strength of my respect and admiration for owie and what appeared to be a spectacular Spiritual Growth owie is full of stories of GOD setting the boat out with them in unexpected and amazing fashion... owie's Ministry has caught my attention alright... and so when owie was talking about ... it was like well that owie had just grown when they went to this particular cjhurch that's what i understood .. and i had felt a reputation from this church for a while now... in fact someone from my church had gone along and we had deciphered some of their experiences... i was not however remotely prepared for my actual visit... that Jesus apparently was dragging out.... there was something that was stopping me i was asking GOD and GOD was setting alternatives....  ok so finally i got a free day.. and when i arrive i discover mog there and someone who i have been hanging out with that very morning hey they said nothing!.... and owie and one or two other folks i have been hanging out in one context or another and even one or two folks that well i have seen them before elsewhere.....   so it is quite a crowd what with strangers there as well... they are just finishing off the morning and i am wondering a bit now why is it that folks are kindov avoiding me just a little...  but i do notice.... for some reason i feel the need to rush into the

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GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,

[ecuworrier]

[ecuworrier]