Message #657

[ecuworrier]

just a few minutes.... while listening to a jazz standard.... that feels a bit weird to talk about...

just Jesus....  feeling challenged... just been talkin about that thing of feeling challenged when it is so much easier to speak these truths into other's lives and when it comes to one's own....  the space the place that GOD has just for me ....that only place... the relax GOD is in control....  cos well GOD has shown this stuff... that if we trust... what does it take to trust in GOD that growing thing...

yesterday street stuff was great the sun has something to do with it... more than that it brings out those prepared to pray on site without being seen or known about ... one the rest knew nothing about ....winter was cruel a very different feel... though we kept plugging away... the sun comes out and the light changes the smiles come out a readiness to tarry awhile...  and GOD turns up..

i have been dealing with a number of issues well not really just aware..... of fear.. of personality of stuff in the way.. well that's a good modern religious term .... that there is stuff in the way of us actually being in communication with GOD stuff distracting stuff that's not of GOD ... that's before we get to obedience... no wonder prophesy is so popular... i mean it shouldn't matter one jot whatever Paul said or saidn't what our foci of attention is if we is in for a penny in for a pound with Jesus in the first place....  trustin that place.... if we feel sure we can trust it that is...  so who do we need to trust? the man who says loojk into my eyes  or that actually we can hear eventually...   prophetic voices those the ones that goes round telling you what to do  without doin nuffing other than telling you what to do? don't you want to punch someone like that?  should one be waiting for the trial and error of waiting for the prophet to turn up and after all would we believe them and especially after all that stuff in Jeremiah or even Moses and Jesus about false prophets... i mean if you can see them coming....  it's an irony really and i would say a symptom of the heirarchical nature of the charismatic church even to consider nurturing of the Prophetic... just simply cos... if you is listening to GOD in the first place then surely all you needs to do is get on with it.... and if you aren't or can't hear GOd then shouldn't you be asking GOD to do something about it or at least trying to sort out your end... and shouldn't the non heirarchical nature of church be considering how best to get everyone with opened ears... so if you is realising there is a person not listening or Hearing GOD then shouldn't that be the objective?... actually does Prophesy the Gift the Gift of Encouragement imparting the word from GOD... make a difference well oh yes it does... but half the time one thinks that's nice... and does not quite grasp the bigger picture that GOD wants a word with you.. that is the impression that i get listening to what is listened to... some chuirches are really encouraging... maybe it's time to disentangle what's rattling in the back of my mind as we is talking about Prophecy....  i think we look on it as words of encouragement sometimes Scriptural sometimes consistent with Scripture word of destiny and direction stuff that has meaning that when we witness stuff we goes wow but what about me or wow but please don't me... and stuff like that...  but me my head likes the understanding of the Prophetic as all that is GOD becoming... in other words here on earth is about to change forever big time ... Heaven onto earth stuff... Power Dominion Authority of GOD and the Effecting of change ... so words of knowledge stuff... like stuff that GOD says that GOD gives the words to say and it happens... so it's not about us other than listeners doers and witnessers... seems to me that folks is all over the place in respect of what or how they listens how they communicates... the encouraging stuff though is vitally important because it sets the frameworks of GOD's Nature that is Spirit Spiritual Love but it also brings forth the person to person of GOD .... here my messenger? no .... here MY MESSAGE..... right to the t word perfect in perfect timing.. this does require listening the ability to listen  to be patient and disciplined like don't run your mouth off....   or the gift of interpretation... well i've had well having had someone give me an image and then get me all worked up ... i had an idea and next time i saw them i asked them could they please tell me now was the object of image ... thus by any chance... and they said yes... well that threw the interpretation of the image ... i remember that... it is interesting that GOD would use pictures in one person's mind to give to another person as a message? cos pictures is well ... surely it's all about the artist as to it's interpretation unless you are really good at interpreting and some are but does it not run the risk of.... well the person with image ..now how do they communicate well what exactly what GOD wants to share... the person's reaction of the picture?....  perfect truth... at the end of the day GOD what did that mean what that person said to me... or do we leave it as hey guys you'll never guess what that guy said to me ....  well eventually .... i am recently quite in awe of these journeys the ones GOD models and hones in us over time.... hopefully until we are ready to... 'there you are! ..' says GOD '..at last!'

i have to say that while i certainly encourage mog and look forward to the next excerpt and i now have a whole 4 'words' to hold forever....  i feel a little help! for myself....  even though we are nudging through the arc of closer listening hearing and all that .. i have learnt i feel a lot of things this last year even about the prayers that churches say for theri own spaces....  whicjh is really interesting ... as i am writing about this i is wondering a little about now where does that line of GOD begin and that human thing well .... well i is still working that out is there a difference is there a contradiction necessarily?  well as i write these words i suspect a little further reflection is required as well as questions of GOD ...

i is struggling though tomorrow is a prayer meeting and i is not looking forward at least at the minute....

.... ah ok so then we ends up with that worship thing ... my heart... relaly struggling with worship in fact i is not sure i is worshipping as much as going through the motions!  i really has very little enthusiasm for mass worship... though today earlier there was a n amazing moment when a song everyone knew was sung and actually  was singing and could really sense the Holy Spirit.... for a while i just did not join in but just listened!....  and grinned  this was worship!


but above all i is struggling with my personality....  me what is where is the me ?  that is not the me that is in the way is that a me ....  well you know more questions than answers

GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,