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down by the riverside ... a sense of cool on a hot day in spite of the heat off of the trumpets...

me is well fed up...there are two IT cafes not far from ezch other... mog (seen above) said to me go to this one  ... honestly i prefer the other of the two.... and explained the history ogf the two at least as is relevant for the last years of lent blogging....   well  i say this with a sigh here i am not especially gladly for the second visit in a row.... cos on both occasions the other one as i have arrived is closing either for the day or temporarily... but it is by no means just the hot and bo0theredness of the weather i mean well early 20s? is surely not that bothersome but me i is well trooly miserable!

i was woke up early so i actually made it to church early.... i knew what the sermon was and thought you know what i can give that one a miss.... told you i was not taking lent seriously as our speaker bashjed out whatever words was .... well it finished like.... look you are not supposed to be feeling bad after all that.... you are not condemned something like that ... that is the point of the sermon.... well i looks around me and seems only the pastor seems to think he is not condemned or folks welcome the experience.... it's quite funny though that it's not just me ... mog too just hangs out in the foyer miles away from listening to the sermon we catch the folks lurking skulking ... well today there was a coupla folks making their return... and me i just feel weiry i mean why did they go in the first place... (it was however really nice to see them!...) me i kindov felt ok ... but where was GOD in this?.....  i felt weiry with the sermon i was definitely gonna avoid and it was not difficult....  ok so the pastor looked Holy Ghost radiant afterwards... but hey me i ask was he the only one wot got the thread of his own sermon notes if that is the case then.... what's happened to Holy Ghost Communication is he the only one who is holy in the church?

i said above that i had been told off and i guess i hasn't quite dealt with the object of that other to .. well try to work it all out for myself.....

church was interesting cos well something has been talked about and prayed about behind the scenes and i has only just caught the gist of it.... and now we all gets the gist of it... i can tell a number of hearts fall and mine too....  me cos some folks can't quite get their head around leadership and community and others well cos they don't think too much of the idea....  seems an opportunity has come up for a move of church (yes another one... at least this one is reasonably intelligent .... well it would be if) it would mean moving church from it's current happy place where strangers are not exactly falling over themselves to come into... (though it does happen from time to time).....  to a place of struggle... amidst and amongst the poor.... now me is not overwhelmed by this in spite of my experience of shift in the Realms of Grace....  i is not oveerwhelmed cos well.... our pastor i do not see moving to that area his idea is being in the midst of a Sunday show with the occasional Ministry opportunity that comes his way be the usual way.... and then scuttling away to a safe place to enjoy the finer things in life ... this is an initiative that would have to be led by the c hurch itself t=with the possibility of pastor disappearing off eleswhere at some point..  part of it amuses me cos this is well out of thye reach of the minds and hearts of most of the eldership and would certainly be testing place... me too i feel tested and at the moment of mutterikgns i feel underwhelmed my heart and mind is not there ...it's a good ideaetcetc..

but there i am and GOD says' this is your church'... yes there i am feeling alienated and well fed up
i got troubles of my own that's botherin me


GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,