well... here we are again...

i have decided to abandon 'casting crowns' and am now listening to 33 miles... well it's pretty much the same sort of thing... 'Arms that hold the universe'

  so .. what has happened the last two hours... i have written and rewritten about the plight of the poor and the church that tragic position i enjoyed writing both .... but hey Relax GOD is in Control it has though been a time that ... well i have been i feel deep into a place of Beauty and Grace and a sense of the Bible and what Jesus said now why did Jesus not write down what He said but told us to remember what He had said?  i was reflecting on a parable and feeling that hey you know what.... now why did Jesus say that... when people's experience of Jesus for Real was entirely beyond recognition from what he was teaching of the law... so when Jesus says look to Moses look to the prophets... is He (or not) saying hey guys you aren't looking at me are you.... soo pharisees and other churchment of the day past and presetn look to  what you claim to believe in... the written law.. it's all in there.... but what heHe is actually talking about in that parable keeping to the story terms must have seemed very puzzling to people who looked up and thought hey but it is told about You/i saw with my very eyes.....  well if they are anything like me and listening to sermons.... there is a difference.... what does it mean... for us... do we follow our masters or JEsus... but beyond what we read of the arguments what is Jesus actually doing? and why do we not get more of that in Real life ... ? we keep haveing these discussions about what happened in America in the 50s or later... there seems to be a constant flow of focal points there whilst ....when was the last focal point in England...

does itnot reflect the stories of what JEsus  is not actually what Jesus is doing about it doing about anything ... the LAW OF GOD  IN ACTION is at a different level of Love... we feel to be so muddled in church circles no wonder we like Paul cos he actually wrote down some (pretty mysterious it has to be said) letters and yet Jesus says Come to me.... and whne folks comes with arguments oh dear....   Jesus argues but on thsoose levels,... have you ever had an argument and made a point that somehow in the back of your mind you know is completely not the point but you make it anyway and it slaps you back in the face and the person you wanted to do the one upmanship towards ... well ... isn't that really annoying....  that pride and deceitful thing..... that you took a dishonest position... i mean if you didn't know you'd be really humble wouldn't you but you would know that you knew... there is a hidden agenda of entitlement whren that ahappens... a position of falsity is exposed and you oh no not you is havin nothin of it!... with the Pharisees  Jesus He engages but it's not the point is it?  all this legalistic law stuff.... but when He said it is to the point....   i was rteminded of this otherworldliness of hey what would you ask if you met... being in an audience for a celebrity and feeling very aware how difficult it was to find questions that were relevant to this celebrity's expertise .... i mean whay were we there it somehow shos us up ... the questions we ask...  so there's Jesus dealing with terms on those terms? and there's folsak experiencing Jesus in an Amazing sensational never seen before way ... and leaves the question at least!

why ? do we fix our attention like this? church?

and yet there we are enjoying the hubris and at times humiliation of finding out and at times being found out...!!!!

i got told off today... well i wasn't actually told off but something was brought to my attention and it was a slightly weird but at the same time cool to be well to discover some folks has been comp0laining about me behind my back... it does give me some option to think about things and in that i do feel confident.... that that is a good thing.... it also made me think hey folks complaining about me.... well what i was being complained about .... was kindov interesting..... cos i didn't get a picture of who had complained... and i thought .... well look this has happened a few times muyself ... i don't feel to complain about it somehow... why cos what i has done is given it to GOD .... though there was once an experience at a different church where i did raise the issue of concern....and was so upset that i was all set to make a formal complaint but i dealt with it by praying i mean we could go on about this stuff for ever,,,  sayin this sayin that when actually there is a GOD's Project in here someplace.... and when i took that on things started to change!  and in the end i felt this was a much better approach....  and was glad that cos this was about Spiritual matters that GOD was the best person to vomplain to....  this afternoon was thinking .... you know what.... if it was anyone else no-one would have said a thing.... but turning this over in my mind ... i eventually ...smile thinking it an odd sort of privelege to be complained about cos it gave the opportunity to reflect...  which the people i have declined to complain about  don't get ....  i do get the chance to have some general points though .... c

am listening to the youtube mix for Annie Lennox i did complan a little though thinking what it includes


GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,

hopefully this time!