Message #389

[ecuworrier]

soooo off for coffee with mog mog was buying and bought some cigarettes for me what is it about passion for GOD and cigarettes....

i was not entirely sure what would happen....  you see mog has become a bit famous quite suddenly at least in our church.... now mog like me has had that thing for a while ... you know you hang out quietly in a public space watching the world go by and there suddenly you feel to pray for folks as the world goes by  on the bus in a cafe etc.... well recently and after some adventures with GOD (not locally is this significant ?  i do believe there is something about GOD in the unfamiliar surroundings that DOES something) comes to the point where hey i sat next to this woman and GOD gave me a word!... for some time that has been it ... well now mog has taken to uttering these phrases or shareing these images to folks.....   and there has been a sustained happening of this... mog is reeeally excited

well this brings me back out of a stupour!.... i have had words of knowledge (again after a visit elsewhere) popping into my mind as i pass folks it has come and gone .... and reminded me of what has been.... actually approaching people..... well mog has a great way with this mog explains mog's  a christian.... and that they believe GOD wants to use them to give words....  GOD APPOINTMENT or what and so mog does....   whereas me is at the infancy stage

now one thing that is interesting in this is mog to be fair is excitable but humble mog is the messenger....  meanwhile all those important folks in church has got themselves all excited queueing up to have words... mog says with a sigh... well if GOD gives one....  i am with GOD and mog on this....  mog has been prophetic for a long while and me too has noticed that mog has not given me too many words in this time though more like the words mog has given say in prayer meetings has i dwelt on?  no wonder there is a dry up... so imagine my excitement when mog has a word for me and it's a NICE one!.... by now i have in recent weeks received now i think 4 WORDS and now i is paying more attention to them...  i has to say that mog's eyes is on Fire ... GOD HAS TURNED someone pretty ordinary into someone with an appearance that is really endearing..  with a Power coming off of them that is pretty Awesome.... now that is really cool and like i say on the back of a long Relationship and heart for GOD amidst all the human frailty issues that the church is just oh so lazy about.... so half hearted ... so distracted!....about... sadly anything and everything that is n ot deliberately on the outside..

WORDS is about context and the foreverness... you know those WORDS wot are oh so needed in the moment and oh so unlistened to... AND the foreverness of GOD in that nature of pursuance of you personally recognising the weaknesses and tenderly picking you out and lifting you New Born soul up High the Forevermoment of your Baptism... does this make sense... as we go on through life so often we find ourselves in that spot and all we need to do is to remind ourselves that GOD HAS SPOKEN those WORDS ... REMAIN IN ME REMEMBER WHAT I HAVE TAUGHT WHAT I HAVE SPOKEN TO YOU! the route 1 of goal celebrations as it were..

so when i was ponderously hanging aropund after chiurch thinking to GOD GOD what's next... mog is buying and it's coffee in town.... as we both smoke we sit outside ... mog goes in to get coffee and me i is staring at the big wide world and a word comes to me ... there across the road there is someone sititng feeling very sorry for themselves ... and i has a word.... but i is thinking ..i'll just wait ... mog comes back i need the loo come back and... oh no person is gone.... i should'v... shouting out oh no i sitdown explainiung what just came to me and what the word was...   behind mog is a guy and i see over mogs shoulder this guy is completely transfixed with what i is saying... i clock on that they are asian/middleeastern you know that kindov feel and kindov feel that Jesus has a heart for you fits probs here too... that guy can't seem to stop hanging around us even though he goes inside etc he comes back....  we hang out and wait.... i find myself praying for all sorts of people and even a pigeon with a poorly foot you know a claw foot and lookin not especially good condition that seems to like under my chair.... then mog goes in for refills... and some new folks arrive taking up the free seats they keep asking if the other seat  mog's is free i keep bemusedly saving the seat when the woman asks if there is a seat free you are welcome to join us .. i don't think that mog will mind and mog blood y well shouldn't if mog does...  mog comes out sees the woman and grins meaningfully at me i smile back.....   




well we sat outside i waited alone for a while then... well second coffee... and a woman comes along needs a seat i invite her to join us  and attempt to chat.... for want of something better to say i say we have been to church and are hanging out.... turns out which is what i suspected... GOD's APPOINTMENT.... she is unchurched believer unable to walk far enough to actually get to her local church .....ooooh how many folks have that.... i offer to pray so i kneel on the pavement! and pray she welcomes that WOWOWOWOW! mog eventually gives a word .... and that clearly strikes a nerve one that misunderstands mog's intentions... she leaves thanking me and glaring at mog.... who takes it all in good grace... now me i was expecting other stuff to happen but hey that's quite enough excitement.... the waiting on GOD is an important lesson in itself.....  ah yes earlier in the week i was wondering about all this mog is excited i am feeling excited and the important people in the church are excited and they are talking about it mog is elevated from no mention to on everyone's lips ... and i am thinking .... do i really want to be discussed like this ... a bit of me thainks fat chance with this lot and a bit of me thinks oh no.... in some ways this is the exciting part of streetstuff ... you see they is nowhere to be seen they goes about in cars and buses they looks down on everyone and that's kindov default position.... it is a fear position.... it is a Spiritual pride position ... it is a control position and somehow the last thing they is believing that GOD is kindov saying nowhere is safer than in my hands but when one has built Rapunzels ivory tower why shoudl one worry about niceties about GOD... in truth though i guess that is a sort of lesson of learning that the backbiting and bitchy nature of church even the nice church is an uncomfrotably uncomfortable church.... is not a place to get too comfy in not without eyes wide open...  the trouble is we can get overwhelmed by our own comfort features and care not a less about someone else's discomfort at our comfort position.... this is the church it is defined as it is defined....  more of this anon...



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in the evening attended an anglican Healing service.....   oh dear... me i slunk in the back .... i really did not get on with the ritual ....  the guided walk...   or the necessary emphasis on it's all up to you or so a possible misreading would seem.....   BUT i also did not want to get in the way of what would seem to be for those who needed or took to this format... still what i could not argue with was a strong sense of the Holy Spirit... and apparently missed a bit of a brawl between some folks wanting to lead the thing.... which upset at least one person.... now who wants to be boss?.....  as i was arriving there was someone roaming the streets having a strop about people's general inability to deal with the refuse.... they were taking it very personally but they were actually physically picking up rubbish and one way and another..... and shouting .. me i thought hey it would be cool if they just came into this Healing Service... sadly they did not...

for some reason i am yet again the last person to be thrown out... hang out with a fag everyone really has left staring into space.... as the last there i have rescued some flower decorations that would be thrown away... thinking hey i want to go into town and then i can just leave them someplace for someone randomly to find or .....  i also think hey i can go and now i have not visited soandso after church in the pub for a while so off i set getting some fags on the way.... i come out of the shop round the next corner and bang! find myself in near collision with a person from the.....

(so far.... some time ago this person was in such a state physically and emotionally oh how i wanted to pray for them... they were not having any of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  so i sat close by them and prayed anyway.....  didn't see them for a while then over the past several weeks or so began to see them (street rough sleeping) carefully prayed without engaging with them..... then three days in a row saw them something seemed a little different... then one day after church you know one of those encouraging folks to go out and engage.. i walked down one road and they were coming up the same road... i ventured to say hi and chatted can't recall how conversation began they were very chatty indeed and as a picture of aspuiration emerged i said i'm a christian and just burst into prayer... they were really touched by this and i was moved ......  )

so i say hi thankfully remembering their name... i offer them some of the flowers i have two small bouquets... and they say they want to take one to put up where their sibling died they name a time when i know where we both were.....    i feel shocked... as well as they seem so calm telling the story .... AS WELL AS they are going on a programme that if successfull will get them housed... they are under no illusions about tjhat being challenge....   (well that i remember is what i prayed about last time  so praise the Lord.... and they agree that GOD is GOOD our Jesus and all that!).... off they go with some more prayers etc......  and me there was me wanting to Bless some random person.... i feel sad and alone i am going to catch up with said friend and then i am going to take the other flowers to where the sibling died....   said freind is not where i thought they would be ... but someone formerly of my church is there so kind of reluctantly catchup.... chat for a while about the art and meaning and alternative of not listening to sermons......   we are interruppted.....   by this person wants to leave...  and has spotted someone they need to ..... there is a fabulous  aquarium in view.... so i stare at it not entirely sure why i don't just go.....  i study it for some time there is something about this little space a kind of oasis of activity.... where you really do need a 10 second memory not to get bored or have perpetual deja vue if you are one of the inhabitants....  eventually i stop and i have this rare and bizarre experience it's like i have had a Spiritual experience and with my thoughts i believe i have......  i feel a real inner sense of peace!!!!!!!  wow!!!   now that is Healing! ok gottago say bye to the person who is by now still there but no longer talking to that person....  i am asked about the flowers .....  oh!? with some reluctance i tell them and am utterly astonished !!!!  this person themselves does a project and they really feel a heart for the people.... i never would have thought... but Jesus knew!... i go alone in the dark to the location... and indeed already there three modest attempts to show that it mattered~(i confess i .....) that someone was no more in tragic and premature circumstances... i feel very moved and add my bouquet with prayers well what does one say....