Message #3777

[ecuworrier]

frantic arrival at a hundred miles an hour haven't been able to get on on monday and then just not been able to get here.... take breath! have only a few minutes....


so perhaps working backwards.... i feel Blessed and totally exhilerated and yes GOD is in the house! amidst chaos!....  i've been doing some creative stuff though when one feels at groundhogday with the rudiments one does wonder what is creative..  or when is creative? it certainly makes one thoroughly admire the more accomplished exponents ....l one learns that everyone is talking something through the process... i feel very Blessed someone has landed me a bit of kit that is kindov essential... it is the standard proffessional model apparently.... i fully intend to pay for it .... but it's thoroughly amazing that it spontaneously arrived taking out the kerfaffle that is me trying to acquire said item by going to the shops.... 'how much?!!!!' aghast oh mmm and then pondering for ever..... and GOD was busy yesterday for sure... even though i was thoroughly irritated to a degree of falling out......    there is a lesson here.... not just that GOD IS GOOD!... but that human hangups and human frailties and human apologetics and excuses are not the place to leave things as i write i feel good that i can say these things and feel the importance!....  i have had a wince of time amongst some very newagey folks of all sorts of belief systems and practices..earlier in the year GOD got me to read some OT..... do not fear other gods or other peoples gods... when i read it how important it felt ... it felt as important to remember that in christian community as any place else.... my new agey associates come from all sorts of faith backgrounds i feel at home with the catholic folks who have flocked out of church and religious practice.... into all sorts of places... i am conscious that bible based tribes will argue that there is not enough bible study amidst bells and smells... i never quite understand what that means when folks are pretty hard hearted narrow minded and hardly giving off any sense of  Jesus though quite often there is a faintest whiff of HolySpirit! ioh how enlightened the church would be if Discernment were the number one sought 'gift'.... you see if we were all doin it with integrity and self conscious humility how amazing would be the transformation instead of the have your cake and eat it and everyone looking to everyone else as much as Paul must have encountered prophesy... clarity of vision of GOD clarity of speech interpreter of the Christ.... 

does GOD make mistakes? i find myself drawn into a discussion with an ex catholic (if one ever is an ex).... the discussion comes aobut cos i asked GOD for guidance and the result i share that .... someone of a very different sense of philosophy finds my talking Jesus gets up their nose still... does GOD mistakes ... in the moment ... i am not doing very well... so where is GOD in me then?... GOD never makes mistakes... to highlight the point something comes to light .... i went shopping and asked GOD's guidance ... we came away with something i would never have bought... and it stood in it's packet for some time ... something no-one would have bought... before it got opened and then .... we were all surprised!.....  yum! and Praise the Lord!...

i am told that GOD does the mistakes... and yes i agree with that but it is late in the night alone that the problem with the question is the value assessment of human experience and expedience what we are culturally and socially trained for finding a right and wrong outcome to decision making.... i say the problem witjh the question ... it was thye problem in the moment of conversation with not quite getting or seeking what it was about... it felt like a trick .... and i felt that i had fallen for it.... and somewhere i had!...  wisdom with speaking to GOD and going with GOD's Grace is not part of the mix of the scientific revolution of tear things apart and see what happens next... i was sufficiently rattled so that ... oh dear someone under the skin... we do it to eachother... we disassociate and put down.... the language we use... we are like circling scorpions ... we are rivals where no rivalry is relevant we are who we are and it's ok that way.....  it's like the velodrome ... those bizarre racing formats where the cyclists are all scrunched into competitive stillness who will break first? will the other be able to win?.... there is no prize there is no first past the post or last we are all there together in the confluence of our journeys and there we are defensive and gnashing of teeth... sometimes i can really lose sight of my identity...

yesterday also though i offered to pray for someone and sat with them hand on their shoulder and prayed... it was the first time.... hands on prayer...  they felt crook they did they ... we were both conscentrating on other things... outcome? well some Holy Spirit went busy somewhere for sure... though they said they felt worse... they have had various ailments in the time i have known them... with GOD's Grace they will let me pray some more.... i was in ordinary life and offered to pray for someone who had an injury that had some side effects i had known them a while they seemed to be antireligious... after i prayed with rather a lot of distractions including the unexpected arrival of a christian who i have never to memory crossed paths with in church who seemed ambivalent about what they were seeing? dunno.....  i was surprised to find tha the person i was praying for in fact did have belief and background in church i was treated to a wedding photo ....and more conversation about the role of church in their life... they had married a very non christian... i was not on a where did it all go wrong fact finding mission....  GOD doesn't make mistakes! amazing

i have a long late walk home.... it is cold i am drunk(ish) the poor are everywhere without me thinking too much about it... in fact several of the poor (begging poor) must be tucked up in doors or in safe warm places cos the only folks i see obviously so are some bedraggled unprepared... i am asked for money a couple of times on both occasions i say GOD BLESS YOU! and one of them responds in kind.. i am a little bemused by this..... it is cold... living hand to mouth amidst the midst of plenty and the many debts and many wastages...

i am adding in the poorly person as poor though they would not count themselves as poor as such but poorliness is a matter of experience of daily life.... is chronic poorliness easier to fix than chronic poverty? is chronic poverty easier to fix than chronic poorliness.. chronic poverty is surely fixable just with wadloads of dosh.... wads of whatever is in short supply maintaining a persistent misery.... happiness and joy .... but if you are the only person with wadloads of dosh is it the right thing... is wadloads of dosh just a symptom of something else..


gonna pause here


here is been listening to some Jesus Culture .... am less than usually enamoured what i like about Kim Walker beyond what i don't really see.... is that she tells this story of when the church she was in did that call for folks who wanted to join wojrship ministry.... she says GOD told her not to so she didn't ... i like that

GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,