oh what a day... it's been topsy turvy.... found out that something i was kindov in my head banking on ain't gonna happen ... a cross the pond folks event nearby... and oh no something messed up on their entry and they were sent home again... still had a really fab telecon with someone who i have spoken to before but not met and is really a Blessing and we prayed a bit  as well as chatted... i was kindov moaning somewhat about the need for some out of the box thinking on church in these parts (don't i mean everywhere?)... we had a guest recently who has kindov got me all worked up just on this theme ... though i had sure been warming on this with a few folks... now tell me do you take offense when someone tells you church sucks! do you take it personally or do you recognise church ain't quite perfect? and it could be well.....  well how could it be different... ok now you thought about your answer what is it? do we continue to blame folks for being reluctant to cross thresholds as unbelievers and think of them as unbelievers who make deliberate choices or do we see them as the publicans and prostitutes will see the Kingdom of Heaven before the churchfolks does... does being saved mean church is fit for purpose or is church even irrelevant... well Jesus is not irrelevant.... being a follower of Jesus should therefore not be irrelevant so how does Jesus fit into all of this? how do followers of Jesus fit into all of this.. what does saved mean... did it mean anything essentially different to the jews of the period who were afterall the chosen people? with a proud history of some eminent folks who well lets be honest did get up to some pretty awful stuff at times... and yet GOD is GOD... do we despise ourselves sufficiently to throw ourselves of course to promised land stuff? is there a promised land here in the present? A  struff we might be tending towards or are we all chasing our own tails congratulating ourselves on the promised land is ... the afterlife and like with Moses and co all we gotta do is hang on to Moses and co and we will get there?

Look tommorrow is pentecost a very special time of rememberence in the calender a time where the promised land is opened in milk and honey sorts of times tongues of fire and plenty of freedom imagine that happenening 3 000 conversions in one day in one place quite suddenly in a show of Thanksgiving! a fruit of thanksgiving a fruit of such... and all without mobile phones or internet! do we want it or do we get it cos we are focused on GOD on Jesus and what Jesus said... do we get it in our lifetimes or do we pass on the baton to the next generation... is there anything we have to get first? you see me i don't quite understand what happened to Moses the passages in question are a bit confusing in Numbers... did Moses understand or just give up ... GOD showed him the promised land .... and that was it... he Moses had the humility to submit.. one wonders what he felt ... those 40 years must have seemed a real test... enough to see ... to believe perhaps.... not going there was that something to pray about... forgiveness....  do we get second chances ... or do we need someone more powerful to petition on our behalf? like various stories in the OT....  look we don't know with Moses... but we can look to our own lives... and i'll bet there are many of us who just say hey you know what it doesn't really matter that much afterall... but it has to be a spirit thing or does it does one'w soul have to ache loudly i mean that loudly!!!??? is it enough to be in the right place in the right time?.... is it enough to look loudly to the past and ask what about now? is it enough not to know and not to care even?... i have been having an interesting time of petitioned and persistent prayer really struggling with some of the folks how they react to the journey and sometimes there is a journey... of many steps... and the petitioning prayer warriors worry on with them and some of them like me kindov feel... well i admit there have been 2 follks that comes to mind where i have been praying pretty well .... my emphasis has been to get on with GOD in tyhe journey when their eyes have been on outcome alone.... and on both occasions it's been almost like when i find my heart softening to theri cause and bingo.... it really looks like that on the outside but the outcome itself you can truthfyully see GOD's outcome and journey itself... sometimes though it is apparently the outcome that is the trophy of GOD's Blessing but GOD's focus is on you always whatever you are up to and even the apparent not answering the prayer? well no actually that IS GOD's ANSWER but in context... and it is GOD's Blessing! indeed!... ok

so let's now take that back to prayers for revival where there's me all sourpuss and i admit it i was earlier today listening to some prayers from some folks and me i went and did the washing up... hey great response to corporate prayer hey what?... what was i thinking! ... well i had just listened to some praying... about typical evangelical stuff ... give us the lost give us the influence it was when it was give us influence and positions of authority in society ... i was gone... what we? why do we think we are suitable or better than... isn't the whole problem that we are broken so how is our brokenness gonna help be expert? so we move from the position fast tracked from apologies for how crap we are or rahter apologetics for we are only human in relations to how crap or ordinary we are to do chuirch for eachother to experts on humanity and ordering humanity about... me i was weary man i was hurting why was we we'ing when we shoulda been asking Jesus to come in and then ask Jesus to take control and then let Jesus get on with it without distracting Him? why isn't we fast tracking our listening and learning? i mean if all we can do is sit out in the dark ages and complain then surely that's eviddence enuff of that we is a long way to go... be perfect? man we is asking all sortsa stuff and GOD is listening you know the GOSPEL IS FOR REAL! so let's do it! what is it let's find out ! are we on GOD's journey or the journey of man... 30 000 years of man seems to have got us so far so we should be pleased or are we a little bored? is
GOD improving us or are we still getting sight of our own improvement... what does it take for GOD to do something?

we went treasure hunting today again... between the two of us we had long lists! and short time and we had long conversations that actually were important as such...  actually deeply moving and GOD even managed to bring some folks to listen in who were looked like they were on our lists... it was amazing we talked at great length to one person who was sure that ... but at one point it was them who said something like this conversation is meant to be ... and somehow we got to a point of movingly they didn't really want us to leave!! i could cry about that...

we go and pray about them and a mix of stuff we have had the privelege and delight to hear in the time spent... it did not take long into the conversation despite protestations on their part before GOD APPOINTMENT flashed up... we prayed about all the people who came and journeyed with us so deliberately and ticking so many of the boxes!....  and then in the distance we spot another possibility... well it really was and GOD is Amazing though it didn't click at the time! and only recognised a lot later on... we saw someone with an appearance feature in the distance... you know what? me i am not so sure and i take off my sunglasses to get a closer look ... at first i am unconvinced i am seeing the feature in a particular way.. ok but the closer we get ah i see it now... well we are also a little trepidatious but we approach... the person in question denies that they have the feature we have spotted and claims to have the feature that i saw when i removed my sunglasses  it is completely ridiculous cos there is no way the feature is as they say it is and it is completely as it appears... i ponder that now.... we were situated with a young group of people of many distractions and distractors and clearly not exactly born again christians but they all are GOD's Treasure from Heaven to be realised and we note how they completely seem at different times to be touched by our endeavours... Blessings for everyone... one doesn't want this they say and i refer back to the Blessings for everyone that two of them bought into of their own commentary on what we were about!... and ask for GOD's Blessing they react by walking away with some pretty foul stuff coming out of theri mouth ... they are young and seem to be trying hard to well there is plenty of real life coming out of them ... i spot them later a larger group as i have to pass them .. so i pray again silently....   GOD Loves them and they well we left musing that one or two had been touched... and i pray for them all... a group of folks on the right track simply by being out there at that time.. to be prayed for and GOD is Winning or GOD has won and the process of reconciliation has begun!....

time is running out and we move location and now we have a real dilemma... we are at a location that no longer exists so we are at the location as was my companion has to go and me i have just spotted someone... i have to talk to them! my companion points out that they on another mission had offered to pray for them with someon else and they had refused.... me i go it alone ... and discover i have already met this person months ago and i prayed for them even though they said they did not believe and everything that i prayed came true! here they are again the last time i saw them was a moving time of it was to be the last time as they went away to sort theri life out... and have help with such... so it is a mixed Blessing to see them again... they are there cos they got so far and .... but they are on the way to try those stairs again!....  and they let me pray... i feel humbled and moved! as much by the amount of time they chat with me for as anything given they perhaps might have reasonable grounds not to have the time?  months ago they were a GOD APPOINTED MEETING for sure and here they are again!

i go around and have a fag and spot someone on a bench hey GOD appointment GOD gives me a strange word i ask for one and hey i am committed now to speak to them they turn out to have belief even more weird the word i have but i spit it out i have to wait while there is some interference with a movbile phone and the Spirit Falls ... i describe it later to an ipc it sounds like ... ummm yes it does a bit but hey i spell it out as GOD put them into my thoughts and GOD IS GOOD and has the plans that GOD HAS!

later i preach the Gospel to a guinea pig who well there are 2 of them and one is a bit growly but when i call on the Name of Jesus it stops and looks at me! it is interesting though i am aware that cos this little creature is a bit aggressive i do not bond with them at all and don't bond with the other one who is in hiding cos everytime it makes an appearance the other one gets all growly but Jesus seems to make an impression... so i am a little overdoing the Gospel or not to someone i am visiting to do some learning some GOOD stuff hopefully...

i am losing my bearings slightly i feel but it has been a day of reflections asking about the questions and i still have not quite walked backwards yet... i can see there will be a bit of tidying up required of this narrative this time round have we found a place of steady state are we ready for the next state how is GOD gonna join in /join us in the next few days and GOD has been GREAT VERY LOVING VERY SPECIAL! and i know that by the time i get back to this the 9am will be officially already happened to some of you at least and the more of you will be Blessed in the future GOD has for you! GOD WILL TEACH YOU! BE BLESSED!

GOD BLESS!

PEACE AND LOVE,