hi i believe we are entering the home straight and we have Ascension Sunday and the like?

yesterday was a curious day of ridiculous .... and well... i got the second lesson by default couldn't get a second(third lesson by default) and now here we are .... as far as GOD days were concerned GOD was where? forgotten... the amount of time we spend grumbling when we could be busily chatting with GOD ... GOD on our side? why does everyone put it that way... it happened at the weekend i poked my nose around the door of a church in full swing and someone came to greet me but Bless them! they came and said to me about GOD granting the desires of my heart well ... Bless them for that too... if our hearts in some funny places then the desires of our ghearts is gonna be... now readfing the OT is completely a good read for that cos afterall By Covenant the Israelites are in a belonging with GOD and they one way or another manage to get themselves in peculiar places, with GOD crying out loud for folks to return to attention to GOD... yes behaviours come into it but GOD wants your active attention GOD wants your loving attention all that is in your hearts exposed and 'I will decide what is GOD and what is false god' says the Lord in so many words....  so i would rather that my encouraging new friend and brother or sister gave me a spiel on what is in my heart GOD will be correcting it His Way by chucking out a few odd idols ...with no interference from me or anyone else! and will clear the way for some pure GOD's Love petitioning and prayers! AMEN!  hospitality with Jesus isn't always what you want of it .. but the result is spectacular and UTTERLY CONVINCING that GOD is RIGHT and that is without any help from anyone else other than the odd person delivering a message cos well are you right on target? 
i have successfully seemed to sack a contributor who by their own account has great knowledge on the art ... look i am sympathetic to their plight they would not be hanging out with the likes of us if they were not in some sort of plight... actually they would not be in the same room as me if GOD did not want my attention for them... ahh well they had kindov already kindov sacked me!....  we are not speaking to eachother which really misses the point of being in the same boat allbeit trying to live on seperate decks... my stoopidity and sackedness meant i missed an opportunity and all that happened was i was brat of the season with me as i let the opp go and then time stopped in my tracks! opportunities are time and context dimensional one should be on the alert... so after that oh no .... oh then i had a christian event i had booked for and had to travel to.... what i chaotic journey!

 had booked and then there i sat and wondered about going...i honestly was out of sorts.... i had been to the place previously and this time it was a straight forward train journey with changes and then what!... there was NO that is NO person at the first station so i had to fumble with the machine to buy a ticket i could not seem to work out how to use it nobody to ask it took an age! then i had to ask someone about which station to change no person... then on one train .... get off to ask they give me info go out for a fag come back forgotten ask another they although they wear the uniform are going to give me info then give me peculiar and illogical info then they are going to show the board with the info it's just around here they say helpfully as i can see one train arrive..... thankyou! i leap on the train... with the person out of view expecting me to follow and ... missmytrain?!  another train i look at the clock me am gonna be l.a.t.e. ui ask GOD i get an answer ..i ask the conductor who agrees with the first person i asked .... ok it's actually what GOD said ... me i am not quite trusting why it is i set out soooo late and then everything.... arrive at change station then the train is already in the station rush across ask person on board just to make sure they with some ennui turn their heads to look at something and then answer affirmatively... theri manner is such that i just get on and they say thankyou... and something else... they have a point though theri manner does not offer much in the way of 'deserving'  or even that the info might be correct?...  the journey continues we are deffo in another country here.... i catch a curious conversation someone on the mobile phone to someone unseen with someone telling them what to say... i like that the advice is about honesty and fronting up in a modest fashion that that appears to be an untidy dealing... they are young and i look peculiar to them... and all good grace and judgement... i am feeling got at... i  arrive at station i get off now where do i go i have the info in my hand and am relying on the info i was given as correct that it is walkable... i must be i am pretty late... i ask the trains back with some consultation get the answer... i ask the train folks about the where i am going i get asked a curious question about where i am going... oddly and for the first time i take offence at the questioning (normally i would be quick off the mark to advertise a church and Jesus all in one) today i am defensive i am pensive cos a bit i have missed out is that... just before i set out i get some worrying news i have an appointment and i stare at it i stare into the gloom and tbh i would rather just hide under the sofa and cry and i really cannot for the life of me imagine why i should be here in this place as a cloud bursts... and i gather moisture around me like a ..wet blanket?...  i ask some more....  the person who claims olocal knowledge asks me if i mean that street in another town... it forces me to the taxi ranks ..

arrive at venue .... when i see the waft of the Holy Spirit all around a venue i immediately know where it is... though i have to ask someone who looks completely confused and not seen the like of the ticket i have before... oh no then unsurprisingly points out the place i saw the Holy Spirit wrap out of ... i am here!!! HALLELUJAH!!! i am there to ... well why am i here seriously.... i notice stuff .... why is the Holy spirit apparently another colour from what i might be expecting given this person's heritage!!!? actually i catch from their talking that their journey began with GOD's better idea or offer of help in dramatic fashion... here we go Healing miracles... and how about the witness of the gift of languages given like this... the sudden unexpected ability to speak a language one has no apparent knowledge in?....  and the journey we face there being something of prophetic understanding grown from that... i love the notion of reason being a distraction from GOD!!! AMEN AND HALLELUJAH to that!.... that singlehandedly justifies my position of not wanting to hear all that stuff what's said!!!>.... this person has raised people from the dead has a very quirky manner and is full of Blessing and Grace.... i watch on.... i am struggling with why it looks so different from what i expected

giottago