...just felt the urge to go out for a fag.. and sat on a bench pondering the journey of today... when not concentrating i suddenly recognise a face... yes there is sort of sound of a bell ringing.. and i look up i am being named and greeted and there are two men they are a gay couple both Spiritual with different foci of 'religious' journey one conformist one very non conformist at the reflective and meditative end of the non conformist spectrum ... oh wow! i cry hi! i haven't seen them for ages they are visibly 'carriers of His Presence' it's great to see them.... they don't stop they are heeding the call of the bells.... they are on their way to church i won't hold you up say i! there is an inflection of the Holy Spirit i become aware of ... i come back here with more and more of the Holy Spirit just aware as i walk past folks of GOD and shadows of doubt and fear and searching and stuff...
ok i am being interrupted yet again and for a non reason ... it's not been a good day for me on some level... someone has just kind of leaned all over me ... yes it is a bloke does not seem to care about stuff like respect for women's body space... but this time i have been calm... i read the pissing dogs syndrome is big and long and strong and tbh totally forgiveable -acceptable as far as our main church teacher is concerned .. it's a man's world the church and he can
**** where he likes... like the ladie's loos like hanging around and walking in and out during women's prayer meeting stuff like that.... this time i have been calm... it's well as i was saying ... as i came in and sat down i was musing on the Holy Spirit and reading the stuff that flees from folks just walking in the street like the non christians... the christians seem completely oblivious to the demonic i find quite a lot of demonic and religious spiritual essences ... am gradually almost developping a manual of what stuff looks like... well the day has walked this way...
catching up with companion who is sitting ... says triumphantly and puffing chest out... hey you know who this reminds me of... well it's the jehovah's witness who GOD brought in to listen and suffer my the bible has nothing to say to gays and women and everything you are telling me you little jjerk is telling me more of the same and no i see you puffing up before your poor poor woman associate who you are showing off to impress and all i see is demonic evil repressing shutting her out from full or any sort of potential other than to carry ....his pride... so get real... he left reeling and poor woman dunno what she thought!.. but one thing that was not going to happen was she be left with any illusion that he was he and his teaching anything more or less than a little jerk!... well that companion explains ... little jerk mark well how many are there in the Godpel none how many are there in the chuirch world name a number double it ... hey name a number double or quits!.... double or quits seems a pretty good option quit for Heaven quit for Jesus or double up in your imposter breeding... ah yes can you see how furrious it gets... the little jherk posing as the head of the self importance of christ... no Christ is the Annointing no-one can mess with that itself though the worldly fleshly values can try to buy sell steal and borrow and pretense and counterfeit abound to everyone's imagainations etc...
well to get back to companion explains that they are there cos of the leader said... me i declare that person who companion elevates to leader is not my leader and neither really is the person who companion's leader elevated to be leader for the day... haha not me then that leader plays far too many hide and seek games with GOD too many dishonest without integrity intellectual or Spiritual logic without property basically a propensity for madness and ... yes does this look like the makings of a good cult ? there is not a lot of difference really except where GOD gets His Grace from and Gives it out where GOD sees fit.... not demanding that folks are like the leaders of churches before they qualify... which is just as well cos GOD's Grace would have a really small and self serving application if it were so!.... well me i say 'well that's not my leader' and off i go to do coffee prayer and unseething.... i am becoming increasingly unliking of the systems and structures of pisspots and their allies by platitudes of deference before man that makes them more holy ... so i continue the Grace journey of hey i am not interested in your stories and travels your made up theology with the odd gem come spoiling out... well ...spoiling from a point of view that looks pretty flimsy and manmade up really... they do regard me utilitarianly and tolerate me but honesty is not something i can rely on from them... it's the elephant in the room with them ... it would be no different if i was straight... i see them being defiled desecrated too... if a woman belongs to a man they seem to get elevated respect, but come on ... why is it that single women cause such embarrassement such inconvenience... well what is wrong with Isaiah 54.... as a teaching .... is it incompatible with Genesis 123 well that is an interesting question ... i am surrounded with folks at present who elevate folks who do what is in effect demonic abuse on ... those not theri way inclined.... how is it that it is acceptable for those who aren't that way inclined to be made to feel inferior or that they are unworthy ... of who the demonic powers of destruction... i completely baulked as i heard one such person raise the temperature of a meeting ... asking for a 'spirit of patriarchy'.... immediately i thought .... why are they not asking for the Holy Spirit and going where GOD wants to go?.... they who claim and are revered as more well lots of things... it was thorougly interesting that they were around for a while with a reputation oh yes yet anothher bunch of interlopers that had arrived out of nowhere with a great bunch of ideas about what GOD was like and what was good for the likes of us ... ie everyone church and other .... it's been really interesting to reflect like how GOD has pulled bme outside of their sphere of influence pretty much everywhere they go .. well almost i reflect the elevation they have in this church with some... but you know what the more you know the more i find you understand why GOD is indeed pretty clever.... i feel there is a bit of amismatch going on a bit of Jesus and a bit of spirits gods of pick and mix character... i should be .... well i am grateful to GOD for kindov getting me to visit theri turf and come away reeling with shock!.... it's been interesting though within a context of ... praying with an ipc in my church and actually seeing spirits coming out of ipc's mouth and hearing the tone of voice.... i mentioned once in a wider prayermeeting what i saw like spirits coming right up to me when they pray... a learning curve or what... ipc offered to pray for me at that prayer meeting my mention... i declined that one.... yes there are spirits and the demonic... and you can never quite be sure where they will emerge... so i should be perhaps a bit pleased to see stuff like the lurching of a male stray into my body space shows that GOD is at Work and is wanting to grow in me some stuff... Discernment is pretty Amazing Gifting... it's the mainstay if one can't actually tell discriminate between what is GOD and what is not GOD we are all in a state of tender care not to offend or be offended or we are all in a state of don't care offences.... how do we decide the who's who then on teachings do we like the teacher.. worldly views... can we see the Power ..or is it power.... can we find fault with them... well no wonder that's a most popular option... actually do they help us to feel closer to GOD ... nice on a Sunday or when we really need soe ...actually do they help open the way to relationship with GOD... can they? possibly...?? are they prerequisite?... now that is a good question... the way the truth the life can we actually get to the nub that is GOD... are they holding back the opportunities or is GOD really as selective as they say GOD is.... the bumpy road is all about the who's who of truth and who really is true and who do we rely on for expertise where education remains a mixed bag of secrecy and contracts and agreements and people who are called teacher are still often well what... status... an ipc in my church loves to stretch into theri full height and talks and talks for england and some of the stuff is Spiritual me i have stopped listening cos i don't agree with the theories of what ipc thinks of the world through whose eyes??? ... when i first came to the church and had some opportunity to view the 'teachings' of the church i immediately felt uncomfortable... you see i have seen this sort of stuff well what i see of this sort of stuff ... seems it's the bit that above all is not aboiut GOD and therefore only GOD can usefully lead a course of education that is Spiritually exacting and thoroughjly setting free... i feel that some stuff has been shifting and all that has mainly happened is little can i hear of the language that is used by those Spiritually Gifted though this varies.. it's been a difficult year where increasingly i feel unchurched cos the stuff going on that i see is as i see more and more ... less and less like Jesus while Jesus is increasing His Presence and Influence....
ther ewas a time when they were kindov cool to hang around... the truth is that GOD uses what GOD has to encourage....
it occurs to me as someobody with a big whatever walks past yet again that they do not really want that that is why they are behaving that way ... how is
oh well
'nuff said?
GOD BLESS!
Peace and Love.
oh yes there have been some really lovely 1-1 impromptu ministries... one learns that less is better than more at times... BUT GOD's GRACE IS BIGGER THAN YOU so MORE FOR THEM LORD IN JESUS' NJAME AMEN
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