tried out well just sped the word out... "Grace takes no captives" on someone who was lingering around they were caught by something of the moment the Holy Spirit was pretty present....

on my way home last night... it really was a lovely day yesterday!!!... kindov opted for the bus.. ran across the road to get one approaching joining a queue... there was a young man both in and was he in the queue he kept staring at everyone getting on the bus ... i felt uncomfortable... i assumed he was begging when he spoke to me .. i had just searched my pockets for some coins for the fare... he offered me a ticket... assuming he was going to charge me for it (some folks make a coupla quid out of that...) i declined and insisted he got on before me.. as i put my money down he was still hanging around... saying he had two tickets ... can you believe that the bus driver waited for him to give me the ticket and him to find his other one (at my insistence!) even with my money all poised to buy a ticket... i was very moved and the atmosphere really changed with the young man AWESOME... GOD kindov turned up and did the rest! and oops for me! i felt VERY BLESSED!

i had yet another of those fall asleep nights and woke really early! and could not for the life of me get back to sleep... have been very short on temper today!...until... am feeling more than a bit wowed by GOD right now! following...well i have been a bit worried about someone...  and chatting to GOD these past coupla days... have just had a chance meeting with them! and GOD is being a bit clever really! as GOD always seems to manage to be! so i really look forward to the next phase... whatever form GOD has planned!

GOD has been AWESOME ALL WEEK!... somebody who was needing a new job got one after a prayer meeting of prayers for them! after they had really applied themselves to various extreme interviews elsewhere!


GOD is GREAT and me i am mellow to that for sure right now .. suddenly the disquiet of the bizarreness of the day is vanished... i say that though kindov thinking yes but what about... what has happened? to... last night and first thing this morning... that lesson i was telling you about yesterday that was not recorded... hey you know what the information i had from that was like hitting home i was remembering... and yet later in the morning quite suddenly.... i have it appears no contribution this week to my non christian activities and feel a mix of relief and frustration.. i am bogged down with indecision and know there is plenty to learn and effeciently and effectively
! yet me and learning... what was the lesson yesterday really about if i can't trust to apply some of the learning? what was it about feeling that GOD wanted that lesson?

on a more sober note... late night ponderings...

this was an interesting one and i feel i have had quite a few of these of late!... just reflections... this one was about christians and christian children... it is an area of next to no interest to me until they are at least 35 yet i am surrounded by conversations that are quite anxious.... that those children are in danger of being exposed to the rest of the world and swallowed whole! i was pondering about all this seperateness... you see seems to me if all good christian children do is hang out with eachother and stare and dismay disbelief at their peers ... how is this gonna rear the next generation of church as anything other than folks who like church but don't really want anyone spoiling the scene unless they is backs... when does the Gospel work out here this hospitality of the stranger?... when does the protected life of the child in the way it appears to work in the minds of christians ...do anything except serve the statusquo which is a stranger fearing culture of fear of the stranger.... a xenophobic conditioning.... all this set appartedness what has GOD GOT to do with it? to do with anything to do witth it?

and today more ponderings ... remembering what stuff has been said before about grieving the Annointing or grieving the Holy Spirit.... i found myself in what felt to me a slightly odd situation earlier in the year... i was with some folks from a distant and different church.... chatting and they were chatting about Benny Hinn who had visited someplace where they both were seperately.... the one was describing how they had had to wait for the event to start cos BH was really late... the other had been where BH had been at some point in the day and described an entourage and a particularly affluent location... there was something weird and distasteful for me about it all... someone described an event they were at where some students from Bethel had been stuck out in the queue unable to get in so they started doing effective Ministry on people in the queue... BH somehow got wind of it and made a coimment to the audience about how Bethel was somewhere he would like to send his son... they were being careful about not wanting to grieve the Annointing....   there was both an air of questioning and and air of well awe at BH me in contrast was really grumpy! adding i had watched some youtube stuff and had not appreciated the showmanship utilitarian attitude towards folks i had watched being apparently prayed for like i probs said Annointing for what? at which point i was told what for about grieving the Annointing...  i was feeling disconnect with Hinn and i still do.. but i did feel spoken to about attitude and i have been pondering this again....  you see we do pretty well to just stop putting those barriers up to what GOD wants with us... who me but i am nothing but a foul mouthed sinful 'man' and yet Jesus wants to ...         should i not be more interested in this... i have a feeling i should...                    'do try to get along'!

GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,