Message #3660

[ecuworrier]

sudden shifts in tempo and me i... seek refuge here... which is salutory for our time... some highly rhythmic dance music a creak in the door and sudden silence brief nods and i flee here!... to get away... i should be sympathetic but i just feel irritated... fleeing the imediacy of the world with all that the world is and finding the benevolence and all that it is of the socialscape of the www.... who am i to feel holier than anyone... but it's not that...

  while the world around you is ignoring your woes you are able to pick and choose your words carefully as you share your efforts to forget or to find support... there is an irreality in this that is giving apparnecy of easy maintanance to the high maintenance or that is how i see things with the view i have... was not ther esome grace somewhere?... i think that there are some extraordinary lessons that we get talked at from time to time like.... it'a ll out there.... but what if that is so really so???
only we genuinely are not really equipped to deal with that on the level that enables us to get access either immediately or well ever .... what then? it's easy to be smug rude even where rudimentary somethings is a bit stuck... have you ever wondered at the ever so charming and gracious and gentle of folks who spend time with the folks no-one and that means you and it means me.... we are far too busy wishfully thinkging or hey we deserve better we want better those people don't you know the ones those charming and gracious and gentle folks actually sit with... there are after all far more important folks to know if we only knew them... i have been rubbing a few shoulders of late with some of the nicer of those sorts of folks oh no not in the church of course... and somewhat reluctantly it has to be said... and you know what it's boring... if i hear another person say... i didn't want to do this and that ... as if that alone gets you anywhere... they are full of fuhffuh for all the other stuff we admire frome them ....


the www is really rahter exactly like end of small group.. ok does anyone have any prayer needs... one baulks sometimes at what people find to say and not to say... oh to have an environment of trust that is.... 

recently was catching up with someone .. they were describing something i did not know about someone else i have a very small and thoroughly dim view of  .. it is so dim that i confess me i don't really want any further scope... praying from afar is about as close as it feels comfortable to be....  something about what i hear ... ok gives me some information i did not have before but it somehow leaves me with a sense of ok but....  so you can see i have a judgemental attitude... me i would much rather that i did not feel that way i say... the part of the story that feels to me to be missing is the one yet to come surely! it is the one where the Gospel kicks in Wholeheartedly ... and that is my point really... me feeling yes-but about all these poor and poorly folks that seem to be the mainstay of christian community .... who i am supposed to accept as they are...

hold on aren't we that is not just me all of us supposed to love them... and doesn't love them expect a bit of GOD's pazazz? leaving them transformed... one wonders if the church's oibjective isn't just to collect shoulder to shoulder the apparently meek and bland occasionally spiced with a little different but in effect to leave them just as they are stacked up like coffins against the wall to fall over occasionally and cause random inconvenience ... which would be you know kindov predictable of the reality of folks wasn't so dramatic at times beneath the veneer... we are indeed Paul's children rather than Jesus when we are all told to shut up be polite and sit down... no wonder we become such gossips our own lives so poorly detonated with Power and Integrity... as for Love that is one of those words that has no real meaning it is one of those sentimental untruths that power the flower power of wallpaper what is seen like smothering things whether there is anything to hide or not ... but using the tool of  veneer escapes inspection... and renders us all involuntarily something intangible... yes what is love but a sentimental silly old fool in the sky... what is love that it does not burn the heretics? i completely cannot understand how fundamentalists or the right wing of the party find the inquisitions abhorent when they so sharply dissect others but not themselves on issues of heresy...

 i do not understand how fundies dislike various forms of extreme enforcementl... where do they get these ideas from clearly it did not bother them before and clearly theri own witch-hunting and that of their freinds and christian neighbours doesn't really offend them... i am tired of thsoe primed and poised to find the great heretics what are they going to do when they find them? 

Jesus goes on about false prophets sure enough and that demands we have an objective fully subjective fully subjunctive and gerund even relationship with Jesus GOD the Father surely?  but heretics  well that's why the gospels were written so i guess we should therefore be on the look out...if we is gonna look to the folks around us then we is sure as eggs gonna find some heretics but how many people do we have to listen to or not listen to befoer we is sure about who is a heretic and who isn't?

 hang on though what if we actually have a relationship with GOD that is a bit more demanding than we will watch out for heretics with the others and hope nobody sees us as lacking... we could always keep our heads down i guess and where the same clothes everyone else does....  it's amazing what can come out of the mouths of those that hang out with the heresy watch people...

ok what if the unthinkable we all give up this heretic watch and actually try and have a relationship with GOD look i am pondering i ain't telling you personally to do anything me i is on a roll here escaping having to have a conversation with a real person who needs help when i just do not want to do the high maintanance thing ok they are happy enough they got the www on the go...  happy.... am i defending their choice..?.(heretcial watch ) more importantly am i defending GOD's choice... hey how can i know if i am defending GOD's choice if i am ignoring to ask GOD? i can tell we got there thanks GOD

GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,