Message #3656

[ecuworrier]

listening to some laid back music....  two of the Gospel folk of the jazz genre...

a smooth lazy interlude to what has been a strange and rather awesome day!

church... i wake up just in time to be slightly late for church ... there is a big surprise waiting for me! a new back turns out to be somebody who i might have been expected to have a prejudice towards... but me hey i ride with GOD and i end up in the bizarre situation the Holy Spirit trips off my lips leaving me pondering .... you see i am pleased to see GOD nurture diversity of our fellowship and this really means i am confronted by my issues or prejudices... the experience of the Holy Spirit giving me stuff and me going along with that results in me feeling beautifully surpised hey GOD is in control and this person is clearly a believer AND having had a horrid time... a time of Refreshment and Grace is needed and me i am keen to be a part of this! i go with GOD easy as that! let GOD say or do what GOD WILL i am feeling something of the sense of tears as i speak....   

it's been raining most of the day and some of us had planned an impromptu prayer walk ... well was not looking forward to the big mac experience... so had a word with GOD Who didn't seem to necessarily include mac in plans... in fact there was a definite i didn't take the mac...

i arrive at the meeting place which is indoors so have a sneaky fag on a bench.. we are praying in a rough area of town... and i find myself suddenly confronted and thoroughly intimidated by two very small boys both surely less than ten... they ask me for a cigarette i say no there then unwinds a most peculiar conversation.... that appears endless... no is not the stop  by any means... do you have a spare one... is that your last one.... do you have anymore on you ...can i have one it's not for me the one says... it's for my disabled mother who is at home and can't get out... it's not for me .... eventually i break the monotony of no with embellisjhments with ask someone that you know.... finally child looks over his shoulder and shouts 'sjjhe says no' and the two of them walk off ... i look to where he was calling there were three boys aged about ten who shuffle about... i marvelled at how dead pan the child had spoken and it has to be said showed a clever legalistic mind as well as a completely deadpan ability to lie... interestingly the one statement it's not for me stood out with some emphasis of trutjh... i am pondering stopping smoking then and there in the middle of the conversation.... our prayer walk is really nice we are quite a big group as prayer walks go and i manage to get lost .. it is totally bizarre one minute yes i am following the Holy Spirit and then i am shure i have lost the trail while the others... well i have to go down that road... and so i do and find myself amused as GOD has got me to go down a road which opens a view of the youngsters playing football yes those same ones... the Holy Spirit sure is there!  i go back and found the rest are well pretty vanished ... help! i have the bizarre experience of following likely trail then seeing them and suddenly again they have vanished... i feel a liitle unnerved by the earlier kids... and the environment is well... i can't see anyone and i am not in view of anything like tells me a from b.... i follow GOD who eventually takes me to within view of them! stationary... !

some of them are off to another church for an evening service ... via roundabout and a lift from someone who isn't going i end up there.... i have walked in on preaching which slightly irritates me ... it's a woman which might have pleased me but i am determined i am not going to listen to the talk which as far as talks at that chiurch are concerned turns into one of hte better ones! i hang out want to chat with one of compadres from the walk/// its cool a start praying and some odd praying happens i get a word which /// i ask a question... no they haven't heard of that at that point i am not sure what it is though it sounds familiar... i pray another vein of prayer... there are two people engaging behind me i'm thinking i am wondering if i am getting cross wires... somewhere... what happens is then... i remember what the word means ... the two people have gone ...my comp  prays for me i am completely distracted by the people who have gone...  i say to my compadre i know what that word means and explain... by now i am fully convinced some crosswiring has occured... my comp recognises the context i am placing now that means something... i stare at them ... i never knew that/// it seems so unlikely... but they are familiar!... i have lost the thread they have to go... i hang round finish some tea//// a bible on a table completely distracts me ... it's closed but somehow i want to open and read and so i do... it is NIV i open it ... at the semon on the mount... i read the bit about behaviours and become completely suynced in the beatitudes... i am reading them and just somehow trying to understand them... the passage//// what is going on there Blessed basically i feel it's about giving whole heartedly like everything to GOD do this and you will rejoice... to be praised by men is not exactly up to much in that passage to be well thought of!... i smile at that a little i have just been sharing about my week and getting myself into trouble... or feeling so with authority... at some point i have supped on this word enoguh ,,, i look up and see a Ministry situation going on.... i am drawn in ... it is not my chiurch so i do that visitor thing of staying clear but as it goes on i feel the people involved are inexperienced.... i ask GOD some stuff there is a weird something... well already there has been some weird stuff it feels... as it goes on... well there comes a point where i have silently been well lost of stuff really and it's not clear where things has got to/// i am trying to give to GOD what i should do... it seems clear that the folks praying are out of therii depth and seems they keep being interrupted by folks talking to them completely uninvolved it feels really weird as a sight... anyhows i just goes for it out it comes what it appears Jesus is giving me not very loudly at all... and suddenly....well.... i smile get up and leave though i do remain outside having a fag and just pondering everything... that's all i can say really... have no idea abouyt anything really... and folks stay inside locking the door,,,,,  anyhows that is just about it for today

reading for the day... yes i read various bits... psalm 138

GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,