oh dear!
just come from one unholy row or what... well that's not fair someone said to me 'forgive me' i thank them for it hugs all round... i had just stormed out to have a fag and found a GOD APPOINTMENT so i returned all smiles like ... a portion of GOD and everything is forgot!... the row escalated from it was all my fault... it's that thing the way we use language denotes prejudice or misunderstanding hey i give generously here... i am of the view that what we say the how we say it denotes what's going on somewhere in ourselves it appears the person i am talking to is offended that i am offended by the way that they use language when they don't mean... it's one of those things .. i mean lets be free here to say that one can be very careful about how one uses language and underneath one is quite a different person.. the art of good manners? the art of deception? charm covers all things? while one is caught up in the linguistic certainties of ones own learning and the way we talk doesn't reflect our true feelings? me i am on the warpath the intellectual one of what i see in terms of what the person does as reflecting a person's position on any aspect of life... it's a crude rule of thumb but hey... i guess i am sick of people coming across all acceptable and charming and then talking or doing either in front of you or behind your back.... as a christian it is a fine line but searching for GOD's Heart... in all situations?... as i am having a quiet fag i reflect that i do have prejudices plenty of them and the last place i want to be is complacent and unteachable or unreachable just because everyone does.... the unexpected escalation came about cos i guess i wasn't having it the use of 'those' to seperate out groups of people based on ...???? does GOD see people as groups of people? i asked... i was offended but i was offended from experiencing reactions elsewhere... and so yes i was offended... actually me i has some learning here too! like some big learning... about how to handle the situation in situ of listening to a christian have very different views and 'views' from me without getting all het up...
i make the point at one point that i can be around difference ... in the church this is so common place for me!....
but i do wonder as i ponder these things ok here it is!
i left you on thursday and attempted to go to a housegroup the housegroup doesn't
hafta come back later
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