....well everyday i've had somebody new to pray hands on for ..... late thursday night am thinking haven't done one today... and then ... must go to the shop i have a feeling... and there i am in the shop praying for somebody in a cast... i look at them and ask how does that feel... i pray again and they say that;s amazing! they are an unchurched believer who i have spoken to about my faith ... they are telling me there and then they can do something that they could not do previously i am humbled .... the following day i find an opportunity to catch up ... since my shopping actually turns out to be something i really need but do not actually utilise i smile to myself .... but i hear that the shooting pains that they had not previously mention in those terms have gone and i pray some more they think i have been deliberately put by GOD in their midst me i think they have been in my midst...  i repray for somebody else who i prayed for noticing improvement but having a bad day.... and find myself tongue tied to offer prayer to one or two folks in casts that i am surrounded by... oh how i love this!

yesterday was GOOD FRIDAY GOD woke me in time to go to church and somehow i was well dragging my feet but still made it in but missed the religious bit .... well is that fair? the guided walk... stations of the cross with meditation.... (i later dive into a catholic church and find all their statues are covered it's really weird that//// except there is a tiny crucifix uncovered and it is radiating the JHoly Spirit well me i sit down and notice the stations of the cross adorning the walls wow perfect! i have to find the begining and then me and one other woman get ejected by the priest sigh!.....) i really enjoy some   and finally get to break bread and drink wine all on my own.... cos well i have ceased to like to be served it's Jesus i want to do communion with!  -it seems loads of churches are going theri own way on the bread and wine thing.... i cannot stand the bread dipped in wine thing or any variant of where the body is broken signalling Jesus earthly life and the blood poured the life blood of Heaven to earth... and have even during the year had such a strop at one church that i got a telling off well they did ask me if i enjoyed the service... well i liked the worship ...and started well had lots to say about  ... me i could not believe that a sacramentally based chjrch opts for bread dipped in wine or juice... what is one communing with when Jesus says do this as oft as ye remember and yet the good folks of the precinct get their bibles out and quote Paul....  why can't we do it with Jesus? it may come as no surprise that it is some time since i was ever asked to preside over the table.. at my church and actually it was all of once and only once and it was on GOOD FRIDAY onceuponatime a while ago..- i arrive as Ministry is in progress but linger outside inwardly groaning as i hear an important church person say 'i said that' i was thinking ok but what about Jesus? ,,,, Ministry time though  is marvellous and i ask some folk about praying cos i have an evening appointment that i later muse about the name of the ancient english king ethel the unready ?... er can't quite recall his name but think i am full of excuses always determinedly underprepared! always faffing and always well i feel falling short but it is humbling to be unready and receive folks encouragement! i have had 3 days to prepare for this appointment which is a very little time given how crap i am at learning and given that there is no window of opportunity for rehearsal!  i discover i am not alone though......   which leaves me concerned about the others //// i have prepared something for non-christian environment ... and want to claim my faith so my bit of activity is a mix of something very familiar which is kindov relavant suggested by one of the others on my questioning theri substantial knowledge well i thought they would come up with something a bit more obvious but there is something of complete inspiration at their brainwave!!!!  ok....  well i am familiar if not internalised and i have an idea to include something that is less well known of defo christian origins but fits it seems on more levels than one and requires some serious learning!... me i want a particular take but seem to struggle to explain and in the end well...... GOD like has a plan that is a little peculiar but i go with it into yet more uncharted territory .... it's not what i would have done but in the moment that's what i did...  and maybe under the circumstances GOD got it right afterall!

later have evangelical opportunity.... Bless that person trying to make conversation with me ... asking me about plans for Easter and me saying that er well er em am er feeling pretty irreligious as it happens... i get asked if i had a church what would it be like///// well i reply that it is a dilemma whether church as we know it is what following Christ really is about.... though of course these sorts of matters are up to GOD and it would be GOD that sorts out these matters or any matters in er 'my church' i feel it's a really interesting church and remembering something they said about a time of association with church they say that at that church ....  the good folks of the evangelical church did an awful lot of talkign and apparently not a lot of doing.... that does sound familiar ... i like the community engaged with helping people in need church that person would like to see... they have a very sad tale to tell of the abuse of them by a church person... i use the word abuse for what other word can describe the nasty spiteful mallevoulousness of spreading rumours of lies about that person.... their crime /// not being liked by that person who objected to theri association with somebody in the church ie the evangelical link person hey ho! not a good advert for church methinks  person agrees....


....   very little today is well pretty well amazing... do street stuff .... i confess i was not entirely pleased that mog was gonna come to .... but for completely irrational reasons.... somehow the 3 of us /// well i turn up late actaully so just as well mog was on time! me late? was well..  it went like this i set out ok.... and my plans are completely changed by the loss of a couple of fags in a box... like whe what etc i discover that i am carrying something from the church in my pocket that i should have unloaded the day and am sure that#s to blame for the packet falling out....  peh   ... so i set out needing to get some more.... then i want one and find a space of sanctuary i don't often stop in but ther is something of the Holy Spirit drawing me in ... i look and see i am not alone somebody is on the mobile..... and i pray and all of a sudden this person starts to cry on the phone/// so i think should i approach them and cos they continye the conversation on the phone i just pray for them.... ok so off i go arrive at destination and just have to have a fag before meeting the others.... i find that i can't get my prefered seat so i sit at seat two light up when this person parks their backside on the seat and starts to cough i get up and notice the other seat is empty person does not want me to go ... and reluctantly just cos o fthe smoke i sit down again cos methoughts this there was someything about the deliberate parking of backside that spoke of GOD appointment and somehow it was my evangelical tag of the day what is more there is me i spend all that time listening fascinated and sharing a bit of Faith and then i am late .... streetstuff always throws something new in the air and today... a GOD Appointment turned out to be a foreign person who though they seemed to speak english couldn't seem to understnd english i battled with one of us who of what they have said surely knows a little releavant language in the end GOD furnishes with some words of a language that i feel i should have greater ability with //// i persist though and GOD helps out with a few words none that i have never heard but sufficient to communicate GOD;s WORD and person is amazed theri name indicates something of a very special Spiritual inspiration from their family! a bit further on two folks are lingering and i feel prompted to approach them with a WORD in the language i have just been battling with .... they are not from the same country at all! so i translate back into english and they translate it into the correct language... and everyone feels Blessed! wow!  we pack up and just have a beautiful Ministry time! i am getting sooo much beautiful encouragement at the minute amazing!

GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,