ah yes Sunday still!... in the evening i am supposed to be... and don't quite seem to manage to though i pray like mad... i retreat to the shop... one of the members of staff has been consistently friendly at times feeling overly so... they are my biggest encourager! they think i'm a nice person and a good one!!!! oh dear!  and have given me extra money off my late night scavenge for last sell by date items to the extent that i feel on moral grounds the need to make a stand... and have done so previously there is however something of GOD in this ... but still there are other customers... other really nice ones surely? this member of staff stops for a chat swapping how's- your- day- been pleasantries i am about to carry on with my vague shopping when they ask if i've been to cjhurch today... oh! of all the Sundays they could have asked... we have a chat... i discover that member of staff declares confident belief...and describes a family heritage of belief and sunday school childhood... it kindov figures in their generally lovely demeanour and somehow explains this person's shine to me! or rather to GOD in me! we jhave a long chat where i share some of my perspectives or GOD's reflections in me... i finally make it to the check out... am standing in the queue with this heightened awareness of the Presence GOD when the person behind me gets my attention somehow and under my breath i say Jesus Loves you ... something i have been saying to various strangers in passing along the day along with GOD BLESS!... i am pretty sure this is inaudible i just need to say it ,,, and the person behind me says out loud 'so?'  i am so astonished am glad it's my turn not quite sure what to do or say... but hey i pray about it.. remembering GOD's 'Give me your strongest arguments' in Isaiah

earlier also found i had somebody trying to contact the out of communication me ... have been having many conversations of the nature of what do you do without a mobile phone etc... 'talk to you face to face?'  somebody is concerned as it happens about me... and they are right to be so ... i explain that i am trusting GOD 'you need to help GOD out' they say ... and there is something about GOD in those words... you see we can get extremely lost in our just leaving it to Jesus when something of application is required of us.... or we may be the only brain or hands about that can help GOD.... i am touched by their Wsdom and acceptance of my faith and the need for faith to be practical as well as Spiritual ////  i think of one occasion when i was with them for a meal somebody had said Grace and i said Grace cos seems it had passed by unnoticed and the Holy Spirit had somehow showed up and i prayed for Healing within the loose adhoc format and they like lurched forward saying loudly YES! and AMEN! though they probably are more agnostic than ... but hey !!!

 more reminiscing: i have a coffee break i feel i had to run to get there sort of and sitting in a cafe with my coffee the person at the next tbleis someone i know or have met about once or twice about two years previous according to them once conversation sets in as they are leaving... they go to a different church and i remember it's a real day for Our Father though .... i ask them how GOD is treating them and they reply with reference to GOD the parent... but as they speak i feel moved with compassion... sounds like they have been having a stern talking to and somehow Our lovely Abba Father has become an austere 'i am right' middle aged person like a dour church father my mind is filled with GOD's LOVE for the toddler delighted to have child on knee lots of play and giggles i share something of that and like somewhere from somewhere an involuntary small child very shy smiles a beautiful child's smile appears on their face... they leave and wave as they pass by...


i find myself in the room with two folks one is going on about GOD responding to something i have just said and i say...  did you grow up a.... 'i went to Sunday school and i object to people ramming Spirituality down children's throats'   me ... i agree: 'GOD comes and does stuff when He does' the other person at that point does something unexpected ... 'why does GOD have to be a 'he'' unexpected cos that person is a man! well... says i and go on about the interesting point of father offspring relationships ... where GOD the Father can be an antidote to hurt in the church setting God is Creator says the other... and Created everyone... yup ... and i suspect that GOD is he cos Jesus addresses GOD as Father... how that must stick in the throats of every never can be perfect dad in that then era of thou shalts and this era of well imperfect dads.... and Jesus addresses GOD as daddy Abba!... i just remark the usage of Jesus....  and add that there is rather a lot of male supremacy that goes on in religion church and all sorts.... that's interesting seems to cloud a view of GOD we descend into a conversation about beards... the old man on the cloud wth a beard! which causes me to look up beards on biblegateway... seems there's two kinds of beards some men must never shave theris off and some must get rid of them one's the priest and the other is the nazarene... ok perhaps i was not completely research hard! but hey tell me now did Jesus have a beard?  !...


  well it has been an interesting day and even the Lord's prayer got a mention! as an example of something that's learnt through much repetition and then is known indelibly off by heart! that's really interesting cos it's non church going company and it was not me who said that and nobody objects! i tell you i love! lent GOD is in the air everywhere!...




 

GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,