Message #3588

[ecuworrier]

ooops and many good intentions and ... unnable to meove from pub and then just not able to well buzzing about like nobodie's flies...

and upset for somebody's sad news...

someday#'s like seems like... GOD'xs day somehow without being terribly obvious.. only like when in the pub i give up my seat to make things easier all round for somebody + friends trying to forage some space and a table i blurt out ' GOD LOVES YOU!' as my small action makes everything seem quite suddenly well helpful but it is the expression on the guy's face he just looks at me like it means something? like wanting more and me hey have i got anything? i carry on my amnoevres... oh it is GOD's time like BIG TIME! alright... pub again? we the pupils have an effort to put on a show that like shows us and them that we have learned something when part of the show is that we are learning about being in a show and that is something that only being in a show can bring practice and learning... it puts pressure on us ... and it is interesting that suddenly our efforts that meander along to get to pass 'go' can be absolutely marvellous suddenly shrivel and shrink to a bag of pipe nerves and everything that can go awry suddenly looms large and what if's or the whole thing about personality and presentation to .... friends and are there any strangers? i am very nervous so nervous that teacher asks old hand any suggestions teacher is taken back by 'just love everyone' as the hot tip ... teacher waits for more ... there is nothing to be said ....  but i think it's a really good one cos me and people they is well out there somewhere and actually they keep flashing into my attention span and then i have to .... love is a really good antidote... me an lovin.. it sure is not natural and yet it is the breath of life and most of the stuff in the way has been put there cos....it's just not natural izzit... no the stuff in the way i mean ... you see why one should be completeely distrusting ovf people and completely loving of .... pure JESUS!

i have been praying this week a crescendo of prayer that when i finally said those words out loud to someone and then said them to GOD... i am praying that this particular seriously ill person can recover can actually be out of hospital and attending something that's important to dear family member! i say this explaining that we are not actually praying for a christian or even somebody well you know these things on a scale to ten ...  and so i continue praying .. on the day their day the day of dear family member something happens...  dear family member is not there ... what?  but turns up unusually late.... cos they have been to the hospital to pick up person.... who will be along later.....    what!!!!?????? i have to ask .... was dear family member expecting this?....  not at all... !! i can contain myself no longer ... i blurt out about prayer and GOD listening and stuff! when person arrives one is moved by their condition and it's liek something of GOD has walked in with them and i am completely grinning.... they kindov thankfully don't stay too long but ... i feel very moved and very humble...

GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,