relax GOD is in Control this last year this has been sorely tested and today too.....  i get some news ..... that fills me with fear and apprehension for the future... a time to examine what is going on.... with me like how i react... me i am having a bit of a barney with GOD like how was that supposed to....  i examine my thoughts my view.. collect the facts loosely and sulk well actually i am filled with fear it does feel a bit of deja vue i look at the could haves as if i could pray like that but!!! no now i look at my reactions lets get real here.. the facts are the facts ... and as they stand GOD is in control... so ok.... i look to GOD and find GOD telling me not to worry... ok so natural response... i don't worry...????!!!!! like you can turn off worry like that??? no actually what stops me worrying is the presence of GOD just sensing GOD and the GOD is in Control and full of Blessing i am working on... as i am pojndering this again now GOD reiterates not to worry...


i find it is a time to test the promises of GOD well GOD did surprise me with some stuff recently and suddenly something is kind of fitting in... you see GOD has a whole pallett of Grace and we get preoccupied with the conventions of only seeing the bits we recognise.....  i have been having many conversations on this topic as so many people are affected by changes and christians too .. is it harder for christians with their sense of entitlement to.... well actually they have the same entitlement to Blessing that everyone does... completely unearned though sometimes GOD does give Blessing as if by reward... but the form of Blessing sometimes is well ... and that is the miracle! that GOD fathoms together a whole scope of Blessing that sometimes we just don't ..notice search for as our sense of entitlement hijacks our sense of what Blessing would be or should be... Eternal Blessing Eternal Life full of Blessing! so with this pep talk i know i can face ... well.... GOD's Blessing as yet to be revealed!

i was really challenged a while back .... i could not believe that i was hearing what i was hearing even more so cos it seems that something was being dumped on me that had been dumped on the person dumping... even though that person was sure that them being dumped on in the first instance was a bad and inappropriate way of dealing with stuff so read my similar response to the detail....where i am on the receiving end.... and it is hilarious now looking at it right this moment... everything falling into place.....   i was told that i was banned from worshipping at church it was putting people off their own worship.. in other words some folks had said to someone who added this to that people had complained about me praying for people who were new to the church....  i was flabberghasted .... ok so what were the complaints... no answer..... on pursuit i was getting a 1 in 2 really good feedback and apparently from persons unnamed and reasons unsaid some form of criticism!.......an acrimonious discussion followed where i pointed out that there were only two people who had prayed for me that did not attract criticism of some sort including the person talking to me... a whole lot of stuff was coming up here a whole lot of stuff was said... and me well if there was a problem then surely at every level a Spiritual solution should be sought ???? well the person had prayed before they launched into their polite tirade... er Spiritual solution?  so i was expected to go to church not to worship to to talk to GOD and.... apparently i was supposed to sit down shut up and listen to ... i was supposed to conform to the culture of the church a culture i pointed out that i had no desire to become like one of them! ouch!.... well GOD seems had quite a response.... to my apparent complete frustration.... one Sunday down the line and i woke up late had a real panic about whether to go to church when i really felt tested on this or go to a church locally or go to a church further afield and..... or.... GOD has a rich pallett of options or do something else or ... stay here? woosh i was filled with Holy Spirit stayed home and worshipped then was drawn to go out and found myself going into a local church .. as soon as i entered the insence hit me and GOD said I want to talk to you... i was a little taken aback and walked in looking at an art piece of Jesus with open arms smiling for some reason i found the need to move so i did and sat down still looking at Jesus with open arms when i suddenly noticed that in the new point of view i saw.... an art peice of Jesus on the cross... arms wide open pinned back helpless unable to do what he was built to do!... oh i felt just like that someone started to sing a loud voice Spiritual music but somehow not quite Holy Spirit singing it completely distracted me irritated me and made me think!!!!!... i like GOD's lessons.... the following week late didn't go ended up fasting and praying for some hours at home during which GOD led me to Isaiah 29 the verses where GOD instructs us not to be taught how to worship by man!  the next few weeks well ... to be brief here ... i moaned the folllowing week and GOD to my Amazement said : I don't want you to go to church for 6 weeks.....  what!!???  i went to a conference in London... the following weekend and on the way back GOD said to my Amazement: I want you to go to XXXXX for 6 weeks.... wow! i had an amazing time over the next few weeks with loads of Encouragement.... in what i had been doing...... even the person's well a VERY SPIRITUAL FRIEND in that person's presence started prophesying over me regarding worship!!! (though person did suddenly walk out) AND was given opportunities to pray in other circumstances..  ok so here is the nub......   the person had been dumped on in a different setting.... the problem is about Spirituality.... the problem is about Spiritual ... the problem is about the need to seek search follow Spiritual solutions... the setting that person had been dumped on and reprimanded has recently received a Spiritual make-over.... i think i did too  and was forced to... reach out for GOD search the Heart of the Father!

GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,