Message #2419

[ecuworrier]

spent an hour yesterday doing a post what felt like a pretty good finale to this year.... only silly me... logged for an hour and press post... gone!.. i laughed cos... GOD had said: it's not what you're expecting.... as i turned the corner to approach the IT cafe i wasn't quite sure what GOD meant but as i was writing the person next to be was huffing puffing and blowing quite a lot... i'm sure that GOD wins in this situation so far from being bemused i felt quite happy and serene as i made my way homewards...  it had been as evenings go pretty cool.. 

earlier i had been to a prayer meeting with some misgivings i arrived late and walked into the corridor expecting to hear worship but it was silent......   i went to the loo and as i joined the group we struck up worship which was kindov awesome the Holy Spirit was there and my hands went numb ... the prayer meeting was really cool too.... someone wanted a small lamp turned on ... unfortunately it didn't have a bulb... i scrabbled around for candles then was told by someone else not to bother... it had seemed important i shrugged....  i will be Your Light 'tell them?... i shared that Jesus had said that Jesus woudl be their light... but it was only afterwards that i felt to remember i hadn't delivered the words verbatim..... another learning of the exact science.... Jesus is GOOD oh so GOOD!  didn't even mind tensions and stuff... though managed to get through to another falling out with an important person.... oh if they would only talk to Jesus first rather than rely on human solutions to conversation! i finished with a mighty prayer to GOD ... we had had the single people needing partners.... don't get me wrong here... why should i object iof that's on the heart of the understnading of the matter for others... i just think that folks can hold onto being disappointed with GOD for the lack of instant solutions on the one hand... ignoring the places that needs some attention or Healing... so my mighty prayer was for those who and i decided to pray for those i didn't care who they were those who wanted Jesus as the single important relationship the Way the Truth and the Life... that GOD develop them... one important person shouted out AMEN the others well who knows...

it was a moment of many there were others that feeled like they were taking the establishment by storm that GOD RULES... that folks matters in the complexity of theri lives...  you are not alone!

Jesus Rules yesterday i wrote of the pentecost sunday .... the peculiarities of that evening where i ended up in a church being welcomed by GOD finding that i was not the only if you like refugee or even folks i know who haven't been here before... it was beauty to behold... the intricacies of hope the intriciacies of despair from churches where the feeding mountain had been denied no i was not alone.. it was tragic.... at the same time as i was glad to be there a church celebrating pentecost... yes i was wondering about that the whole thing of the celebration of an event ... 2000 years ago.... what was thirsted for expected for by a whole community of chuirch going christians ..... what was i expecting needing.... the worship was cool the Holy Spirit was there... i was watching the faces of the worship team and the church speaker from afar.... what was this all about?... earlier that day i had spotted the words they were waiting (as Jesus had told them).... did they know what to expect... was it only that when the splitting of the tongues of fire the sound of rushing winds ... the babbling the talking in tongues.... the drunkenness... i had myself felt momentarily drunk three times on Sunday.... in chjurch all three churches? maybe... the place of waiting does it matter?  the waiting that matters... how we wait.... you know that waiting feeling by the bus stop you go and wonder through the shop windows stare at the passers by keep to your thoughts fiddle with mobile phones.... anxiety look up at the stars the sky huff and puff and so on... or if you are waiting for someone to call at home .... relax watch telly ? do housework , what do you do... do you keep busy Jesus is coming do you outstretch with your arms do you wait .. one day GOD will come... do you hold GIOD ransom... GOD can't come cos of... this or that... guilt something someone else said something nobodya wants to thikj about... how many years does it take while others are..... looking elsewhere.... do you carry on with life do you just switch on to that look up and wait let everyone anyone noone know that you is waiting get prayed for?... do you ask do you ask for others do you ask for yourself ?.... i began this part of the blog with a narcissistic posture.... and here i am.... on Sunday evening i prayed for someone who believes who has a condition they have been prayed for many times ... GOD said help that person to receive... i did not know w3hat to do.... GOD said of one situation  i want you to Heal them another situation: i wanted you to JHeal them as the moment had passed... help LORD fill the gap! i love this and am i any further than from being frightened... gradually that fear is insignificant....

i guess today would be a pretty good day to end things.. it's been the endpoint of another activity... where GOD again is full of surprises... i have been well taken aback ... the laast coupla months or so have been pretty fedupedness i struggled the whole time and it well was a disaster! and here.....  the feedbackj... it was nice we were doing a group feedback.... when it came to my turn it all well....  came out all unexpected... seems we all has a learning.... stuff i had undertaken  that had felt a battlefield was suddenly praised for the way that i had taken stuff on.... it was said that i needed to undertake other things too....   but remarkable was i was getting told what i needed to hear that my ethos for the stuff was understood.. what i did not expect to happen or be said... and it was acceptable so!.... it was a relaly odd day for the peculiarity of being amidst folks who were in pain or had suffered quite a debilitating illness like it was an epidemic...

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it's been the toughest of the years of blog soooo... if you have prayed for me i kiss your hand and say thankyou whoever you are... i appreciate it and i pray for you everything .... you have come this far in Faith to pray for misfit renegade... so you must be pretty special to GOD's Eyes....  i pray for

and i want you to reflect on THE WORD MADE FLESH who dwelt among us GOD's WORD havaa all that GOD is Becoming ... coming into real time reality.... He's called JESUS the LORD THAT SAVES...
how near how far ...  JESUS LOVES YOU... any time you need Him to and more besides oh yes i pray for you


GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,