Message #2384

[ecuworrier]

... earlier .... sitting reading the paper earlier kindov gladly wandering into the Bible NIV (yes i know this is not what GOD ordered.... and this is all the point really of an earlier moment.... i'm wandering along... i feel GOD does not want me to stop... so bemused i continue you know what i did not know i was going to stop... you can stop here... ok so i stop...... bemused ....  well one of the things that occurs to me is that me my head does not seriously it does not want me to stay stopped but the rest of my body is stopped....  is this of any impojrtance... well yes it feels that's exactly what it is!  i have been with my head doinjg stuff of it's own accord... i reflect on stuff like hey who was it who now does not go to housegroup ... hey my head sez and so on..... i....   have....    been....     doing....     rather a lot of that of late... as in of weeks months....   hmmm yes i feels spojken to.... something about once that realisation has happened .....  mm ok.... i goes through the day in a different feel altogether like that of ... dunno peace like something makes sense... suddenly like all the reasons of disatisfaction?... well something like that....  i has been complaining about the stuff that's bothered me and it isn't quite the correct focus....  i have to say i almost deaspair at the point at which i in effect jhave stormed out of housegroup... or pissed off with church or all that.... where is my relationship with GOD in this where is GOD leading in this...  pondering this over reading the Bible beautiful positive stuff in the psalms GOD manages to Guide me through a sequence....  the odd and amazing thing and i do notice this i actually feel that i am like from a foreign land i am a visitor here.... a stranger... there is something both weird and wonderful about this wonderful cos .. well i reflect on this a bit later on.... it reminds me of... when i was Baptised actually

which is pretty cool....  it feels weird cos this is unexpected....

i will say this though... thoughj it would be cool if folks is prayin for me ... i mean here on the ground that's cool but hey if all they has in mind is obedience a misfit meek generation... read the Rosanne Barr peice on fame.... if it's about GOD as Sovereign....  wgere does this go from here

i've still got a chunk of backlog to do... and tomorrow what is it going to bring  dunno


GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,

GLORY