Message #2365

[ecuworrier]

ok today or back to Sunday....  i want to get today out of first... tjhere... back to normal in church.... and what happens... well there is quite a lot of stuff going on that is preoccupying folks... it's nice to see folks who's been away but ....  after lunch am asked how i am.... pretty close to a no comment! is my reply... what .... well the conversation takes some interesting turns....

1) now it has been said that there have been complaints about some of the prayers i have said... well there's no surprise from me there!.... i say loadsa prayers ... i am not told who that is cos of confidentiality.... er right thinks i.... the topic is about .... someone who was a guest of someone important in the church ... i felt GOD move me to pray for them .. i hadn't seen them before and at that point i just stood close by why cos they were preoccupied and i did not want to disturb them.... so i just raised my hand towards them .... just allowing the Holy Spirit to do whatever... my mind was completely blank and confident that GOD KNOWS BEST... there was someone else close by who i felt needed prayer so without moving i put my other hand over them.... they felt the Holy spirit and at some point thanked me.... by this time i have got told off by an important person in the church.... i give it to GOD and hold my ground... by this time or some time the first person has opened their eyes  and i nudge in gently with conversation... me sitting next to them draws one person from the church to their other side who kind of waltzes in out of touch out of time.... the first person is new to many things... i discover and it's their first time in church.... the added person goes unable to have a conversation and then another added person arrives similarly struggles to chat.... i just go with the Holy Spirit... gently and leave.... ok the bit that i missed was..... that when i had my hands over/towards  the two my attention was distracted so i missed that the first person had opened eyes and was looking up at the outstretched hand....   and this was observed by the person who was now telling me off with tjhe benefit of the older incidents.....  hmmm i wasn't happy  for some reason.... ok so what had the person actually said anything had the important person talked to the person .....  NO...   i was not happy cos here i was being told to put some boundaries.... and i was tyhinking hey i may not get everything spot on but i am led by GOD that is my aim that's who i ask who i should pray for.....  so for me there is a VERY IMPORTANT BIT MISSING HERE!.... 

i'll just finish this bit off....  i get told that if i was performing miracles then it wouldn't matter everyone would be queing up to pray....

there was something disquieting about this....  i was being put down .. it was ok to see me as an inferior person.... for me to be seen as an inferior person....  hmmmm

2) an important person tells me that they create an illusion of safety to give peopole the impression it is safe to go to theri church to meet GOD... i am shocked by this admission.... i have to say though that this is exactly what has been said of that church by folks fielding some casualties.....  i am shocked that smoke and mirrors is ok.... MORE i am shocked that GOD is seen as an unsafe option.... meaning what exactly...? well i am clear about one thing GOD is the safest place on earth... 

what staggers me is that important people in that church cannot seem to understand these things.... we have been comparing notes about GOD throwing fellowship and sense of safety and community into turmoil.... but me you know what i trust that GOD KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT GOD IS DOING ... GOD wants to be number one in your life says i with a BIG BOLT OF HOLY SPIRIT...

i am feeling a little alien in a culture of illusion and not giving GOD's LOVE RESPONSE to situations that are complex.....  OH LORD WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

gottago GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,