Message #2352

[ecuworrier]

continuing ....  i kindov feel well clutching back at straws though at the time.... went to church in reasonable time....   the theme of forgiveness... hey i actually felt drawn in to listen to a bit of the sermon having already walked out in boredom at the preamble....  i have now found an ideal spot so long as it is only me who has found it... the message of forgiveness came up ....  the thing in the way??? the single obstacle to our relationship???  hey all you can do is investigate this.... half the time it certainly is true we is miles distant from being forgiven ...it came up from an anecdote from a churchleader who had someone phone them up and ... (seems like the speaker did have to physically find stuff from far away... and on the paths of far away journeys hey i is not complaining!)... but hey i wasn't complaining with this one... it felt relevant for me the kindov theme of recent times....  ok the churchleader on the phone was insistent that the person on the phone needed to forgive there was nothing else that the chruchleader had to say (apparently this had been said before?)  and slammed down the phone...FULLSTOP!! don't try this at home unless you are led by the Spirit methinks!... anyhow ..

forgiveness is very important we forgive those who do not deserve forgiveness.... (as previously above) and we forgive without judgement.... that sounds cool to me! ... something was bothering me though... seems some things have changed not necessarily for the worse but.....

a most peculiar moment........  happened at the end of church i had slipped outside.... and when i returned there was a Ministry call and some kind of call for Annointing or whatever... i had missed what it was .... only a couple of folks had their hands raised.. me i felt my hand go up.... the speaker looked from one side of the room to the other where i was ... i saw the reaction as my lone hand was visible and he looked away to the others again... what was it they had asked


well.... it was about leadership.....   i was certainly more than a bit astonished

gottago
i do feel challenged......   i was all set that evening to make my way to a church i'd have to travel to ... i was feeling that there was something that GOD needed to do out of this smokeandmirrors arena of my church.....    where i was feeling a foreigner and did not want to be a part of and was truely struggling about where GOD was and the big question how was i to be with GOD....   as it happened ideally i should have set out earlier