oops juggling pennies and minutes.... it does not take much of an outlay for something hopefully useful .... for the rest of everything to become cliff edge stuff!.... i confess right now i is a bit .... having to deal with something specific... one of those Papa knows best when you know you have been well and truely Blessed and now all of a sudden .... change appears.... as you should know by now i do not get on with change .. and change sometimes seems unthinkable!... i feel disappointed but there is nothing i can do ... am not really coping with it tbh what it does illustrate is that some people in our lives are indeed important and are important for more reason than that they are good friends when you chat it's that GOD thing.... GOD seems to have been systematically dismantling parts of my fellowship one way and another while i feel a little unable quite to see what GOD is doing instead.... it's all good stuff like i keeps telling others and somehow i take a i try to take comfort bit by bit at least when actually help i can't quite hear! look i don't know but i'm at that stage of trying to grieve and not to think about it ..... it feels weird and i feel alarmed cos me i is not entirely sujre what i is listening to..... or avoiding hearing hey ho!
yesterday attempted to go to a chuich that should have been open twice... on the second visit i had missed church and stood outside with someone who was waiting for a lift... i had met them previously and we had not gone on ..... it was curious to see them again aftyer all this time ... needless to say we had not got on.... a person with learning difficulties who had tried some sort of fellowship welcoming physical contact that caused me to growl ferociously.... it was weird.... here we were the door was shut cos they had not had milk for tea and they just decided to leave early .... so much for that... anyhows i went to one pub to listen to some music.... saw the musicians outside and thought hey i need to go elsewhre then saw a christian .... caught up briefly.... went home end of church daypah
GOD BLESS!
Peace and Love,
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