still limping along here slightly bemused and not entirely sure where i am going ......

i have been feeling myself a little hysterical at times..... the Blessing however of GOD was rich at a prayer meeting on Monday evening.... it was nice to find i is not the only person thoroughly fed up of the mundanity and focus of attention of church makes one wonder about the whole thing about ritual.... surely if one goes to church every week one is keepin up with church and supporting that as an institution... but what if that is somehow not quite doin it ... surely this is Hallelujah territory... i think GOD is doing stuff.... i felt squished my feet went numb... that was completely marvellous!  it just felt like GOD meant business and when that happens it reveals yet more that needs sorting!... i had a GOD appointment sorted for me yesterday... i was listening to someone waiting for a sufficient pause to leave for a fag ... eventually i made it outside... there i was that much needed atmosphere when suddenly..... i was really annoyed some voices right there a coupla folks shouting much louder than was required .... and so it continued .... until one of them resolved the irritation they were on theri way for an appointment! and then i knew GOD IS IN CONTROL!