Interested to see this, as the Unitarian church in Newington Green has recently been sprayed with a Banksy style stencil of Woolstoncraft.
She was of course the mother of Mary Shelley as well as being a kind of mother to feminism...

aaargh ... to continue my fume... will have to add the story later.... 

so ok i t centres around particulation of society so let me add a bit... i have acquired a new 'enemy' .... i am completely overwhelmned by an inyerface type successful entrepreneur ... well successful enough to be able to muscle in on my department with many self teachings with many ambitions with many attributes with a big inyerface mouth... there was me breathing easy cos one had moved on ... and there is me still standing and ambling on the spot going nowhere slowly ..well ... the missing bit explains something of this my small life framework that in common with the poor how we rationalise our limited resources... the new person perhaps comes from similar beginings.... i find myself sitting next to them they are annoyed cos i am sitt5ing in their seat interrupting their night out and hey you know what i am not moving anywhere we are all in it together innit? well not really... i feel vulnerable to the voracious appetite of some to consume you to eat you alive take the shirt off your back and give little in return... hey i am exaggerating and this is completely my stuff! ... but everything they are saying and they does try and engage me in conversation in the end i completely clam up  and listen with disdain this is not what i want to be hearing i am in survival mode this person is searching out things to eat to eat me alive... it's not true that they are not generous they have just arranged to pay for somebody to have a turorial Bless them for that... but the more mysterious figure that i present .... it is a time at the minute of reckoning ... the weekend has felt a rude awakening and i struggle to efface the rules of combat only seeing that i have been outmanouvered outthought and i feel completely helpless... it's like that chess game you know it's your move but you haven't been planning what you are doing with conviction so you move and whoopsy the game is lost sop you play again and the same thing happens.... i feel targeted cos i feel vulnerable do i feel some envy perhaps of not that it is easy no but that they persist and through their effo4rts cojnquest me i am hiding behind a rock looking on ... i feel depressed today ...everything is crap i8 am going nowhere... and not quite fully engaged with GOD that is the point... i mean it's all very well for GOD to be smiling on but hey this is paradise actually it's deja vue and it's a bigger 'demon' this time while i am chasing my tail ... and being stamped on.... i get to the point that for all their attributes i don't like them ok so i don't want to learn that way... i have already abdeicated from one opportunity though i really enjoyed the alternative... you see i am getting left behind and everyone else is getting those opportunitities.... i want to cry i feel a fool but my tears are dry! this is all so deja vue for me personally too and this is too a paradise at least this time i have GOD!  and... when we don't do things with conviction we...

yes i wa spondering about this earlier ... when was it that in community people started having status and value for certain things they did or undertook? and then got paid ? i ponder this against the whole church thing the roles of annointing and that thing about annointing for roles where did #Jesus do that?... i mean in Acts Luke puts it that way about Stephen's appointment to give alms to the widows.... we talk about the receiving of 'gifts' but the Holy spirit has everything and the Gospel surely is about releasing us all into a sonship of all things as and when required..

oh and finally remember that flute ? i mentioned it above well and then forgot it and then pretty much as it was then... the flute came up again ... it had been brought to play in church for GOD! great! but it didn't get played the person wanted to play Jesus of my desire.... but... well they did play it then outside the church.... and reported that it didn't feel right to havbe played it before me ...  they wanted to play it to GOD... so do i i need a bit of that now!

GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NWpTSlQC0Dg
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/education-21714645
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/education-20226345

Mahalia Jackson rose to great heights in the world.. and she came from poverty overcrowded household strict disciplinarian aunt replacing mother.... i spent some time once chasing some youtube clips and i was startled by how an aroma of poverty is somehow perpetuated something of the little poor girl remains with her throughout her life...

i do get irritated... quite often we get sidetracked by folks who have made it good from startling beginnings and they sometimes they say themselves they are evidence it can be done... i guess i am irritated with myself at this moment with the whole thing of the ooh factor folks overcoming the odds so you cheer them on... my expoerience in real life has been the tough made good remain tough and ain't given nothin away...  that escape from poverty.... so the theory goes you too can and therefore the poor have only themselves to blame for the plight they are in ... contrast that to the poor are the victims in other words everyone would be rich if it weren't for the rich and the rich themselves are responsible.... i idly think of the real life faces of those i walked by on the poor hill yesterday the adults grunge life dictated lives unlived lives broken before they begun those lives broken before a 'better' life course came along... our dreams.... not long ago i listened to someone on the theme of negativity and Spirituality we are completely able not to think those thoughts we just take them captive ... hey that's nice have you too sat in one of those seminars where a bright middle class addition to humanity gets paid to have you sit through with disbelief or perhaps a little experiment or two lasts about 2 hours... hey am i being negative here? the Gospel is what has brought about any change i can value.. the realisation not a thought thing but a life experience thing that somehow the head eventually gets the message on... when GOD calls out it's the message that call on the Name of the Lord and you will be saved or rescued it's GOD that actually does the transforming bit so why is it we on the whole are such rubbish students.. where do we put our attention? when the chips are down? the Gospel is there but who will be 'MY MESSENGER' oh we sing and read stuff and hear the mutterings behind us of yyesss! and tomorrow is like well like the day before the morrow of new life! we were treated to a new addition to our pr;ayer meeting... and my heart sank .... hi hi i was pleased to see and oh!?? we were treated to a great religious philosopher full of Paul full of something quite dark talking about love and yes they ascribe transformation to GOD and the humility of experience but oh brother!... you don't usually decide so quickly when you are offered a lift... remarked my lift er.. i wanted to flee from the place the new addition was not in a hurry to leave.... everything about this person bothered mne even when they agreed with me! and i was not quite beyond recognising that i could see stuff that was.. i use the word dark quite loosely... i don't want to criticise... denominationalism had been apparently a theme on this person's heart and suddenly .. out came ...'i don't want to criticise .... but and off they were again... to the extent that treasure of the night someone who had taken some similar line was in effect telling them off you can't criticise someone else's belief... hey great news... i had to remark that it was great to hear them say that remembering a time when.....

i check out some stuff idling ... you know i have kindov run out of inspiration for what i am actually doing and then well someone has come and annoyed me so i am gonna stay ...  the pair of us caught in a poverty trap of aggro and community breakdown.... an doodle i do... that's when hey it's a epidemic theme .... kid's in this country who grow up in care... become unplaceable ... kids who grow up in care .. at risk ... kids who grow up in care have no limited support at the vulnerable age of young adulthood.... the various crises with care.. brutality the care scare thing with the ghastly man saville... and are enough kids up in care... and guess what here is a new solution being piloted one county council wants to recruit foster parents who are more better equipped than the norm so they target police prisonofficers and social workers.... hey i think this pretty good thinking on the one hand .. on the other hand i am thinking when do these good folks who have all this skills they exercise at work suddenly get  chill out time scheduled in their days?  so what do we do with a problem like Maria?.... shouldn't we all then be equipped?.... 


well this is what the nuns of the convent of rogers and hammerstien thought....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M1HwVmY28Pk....

i am so glad there is gradually creeping out studies with numbers on the effects of long term damage that occurs home community school for kids  .. that more recently all we hear about is those who were er done a favour? by being systematically bullied and what did happen to the bullies? that events like sexual abuse neglect physical emotional psychological spiritual abuse create life prisons.... the sentencing of offenders remains disproportionate in comparison... just on a scale of tooth for a tooth would be appropriate surely ... but no the bible sets out some disproportionalities of it's own when it comes to notions of sentencing....

the unwantedness the unpreparedness of it all the wantonness oh here we go unresolved but spilling over into....  the problems

but hey where does fixing come in as a natural part of community structures... or is it that the normality of community structures is that some thrive some do not and some is beautiful and given all the aah factor and some just aint...  if this is not how it's meant to be then Lord what is? bring it to pass please.. in the Name of Jesus

GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,

stuff that's presented as good news often masks the truth....

earlier this week a story broke with speculation of a potential breakthrough and cure for HIV when a baby with HIV was treated with drugs the day of their birth and found to be completely clear of HIV in New Mexico US.... the billboards excitedly reflected this event as a breakthrough.... well maybe in the rich west a few babies maybe rescued in this way and Praise the Lord if this is the case .... but Lord! really do we have to focus euphoria on the saving of one life while so many poor do not have access to the basic levels of medication the world over?

on the other hand should i really be so miserable about the saving of one life?  recently someone was talking excitedly about how they had gone to a christian conference... 'impartation ' ... for Healing? they said breathlessly... well i hope i didn't dampen their enthusiasm Lord!.... all i could think of was ... how many impartation conferences had i been to (ok not as many as many!) how many conferences did i now show little interest in attending?... but hey i was on a bit of a roll... you know am i huddled in disillusionment? was i just feeding back my own experience where i have been excited? was i missing out and narked... you see i could of gone to that conference.... well if i had known about it apparently i had been emailed? or had i just gone yawn ..... i was saying i was on a bit of a roll.... the person who was telling about this was in fact also telling about they had been poorly throughout the conference i asked if they had been prayed for..... and said they should have asked for their money back..... gottago

i feel quite emotional still..... it's an odd one this....  for years the world has been divided well pretty much so with the notion of  revolutionaries and sympathies come naturally to some and are unthinkable to others kindov troubled in with the black and white of socialism/communism etc and the who's side are you on if you dare speak out against the friends of your nation!.... but those who have who speak the fluency of idealism .... you see it's so often a debate about chains and breaking chains and yokes .... and long listening has left me with the obvious disinterest of a ruling elite in the plight of the poor... and issue of is it right or not... is the ruling elite generating suffering for the poor or are the poor just there cos well life's not fair don't expect it to be.... 

i feel emotional you geussed it we are talking the death of Hugo Chavez.. and so there i am thinking somehow oh no and somehow thinking hey he gets in the news from time to time controversially through the odd peculiar statement.... and you know what....that outpouring of grief has caught my breath and i try to find out about him a bit more.... and am surprised at how little i know... you see what has attracted my interest is the revolutionary interest in the poor.... a claim by someone that he had helped the poor that he had brought down the rich poor divide and redistributed wealth in his country.... i was interested to see he had been a bit of a revolutionary himself joining the military and attemtping a coup but he was pretty determined it seems and with that determination there is a vibrant result....

i didn't used to be a fan of the revolutionaries Fidel castro was the enemy (according to all the rhetoric i had ever heard) Che gevara was dead... what did he do then?.....   but for a long while now i have been intrigued in well .... the poor suffer badly when there is no-one to help them ... i have been intrigued with the church's response at time to merrily turn a blind eye at times to we have to make a stand in the here and now..... injustice.... who cares.... there is a book there is a film it's called the motorcycle diaries.... and it is the story of a journey of a middleclass medical student from middle class buenos aires to help out at a mission many miles away.... it is the story of Che Geuvara....  and it is his sotry of coming of age.... and there is a critical moment where to be honest he could well have gone to the Gospel but he could not sit by and watch what happened throughout america what he had seen and the church was hardly behaving like Jesus as he was shocked at the the leprosy mission by the people devoted by GOD... he became a man of action and was someone who didn't survive the conlict and yet he remains a suymbol of hope for freedom.... you see he had 3 choices.... to go with his heart to give his heart to GOD or to smother it for an easy existence... i mean how can we not cry at the story he tells just a tiny handful of incidents but defining moments of endemic inequalities accross several countries....  and yet these people become the enemy and everyone works terribly hard not to change anything .....

i am glad that they manned up while i am not advocating violence by any means no me i believe in the Gospel but so do the people who do nothing ....

and it is in recent past that some passionate people have become elected across countries in  South America the first indigenous person a flux of women leaders ... ..people with a passion of what is wrong needs fixing for the endemically poor.... the endemically politically disenfranchised...

i just wish we had more imagination over here and more recognition that things needs fixing.. and i hope the love affair of breaking chains continues.... there's ways and there is wasys...

the expectation of the Gospel is high some of the disciples expect a taking up of arms and is that not just what Jesus calls for? ... only we don't quite get what that means when it does not involve lots of bloodshed... i mean seriously now what is the difference between Jesus and not doing anything at all? even when it hurts to


GOD BLESS!

Peace and Love,
 

http://www.independent.co.uk/voices/commentators/hugo-chavezs-death-is-a-body-blow-for-the-poor-and-oppressed-throughout-latin-america-8521834.html?origin=internalSearch